Just reviewing my life for a moment. I used to be quite sick, and I would write C++ schizocode for hours to cope with this sickness. I have made myself well and abandoned the project, but I took a moment to review it today, and, well, it's pretty impressive actually.

Text Format Music

The idea was to define a new notation for music requiring only a text editor to write, and do it differently abiding by two dimensions. You read it vertically for each moment in time.

As such, this is valid code for one intro to Beethoven's Fifth:

][
[]PI \  G2G2G2\e2\  F2F2F2\D2\  \
[]rh __nanana\na__nanana\na\aa\
][

which is valid input. And naturally you can just paste on more "square lines" to add more instruments, and proceed until you feel like breaking with a "broken square" ][.

To a logical excess, I used this notation to code the entire Beethoven's Fifth, and my software output a valid MIDI which converts to this MP3. I also had Lilypond sheet music output but it was easy to break until I added 1001 countermeasures, and it can still be broken.

I'd post the code but it was pretty Terrypilled and schizophrenic, it's out there though, and I'd consider rewriting it with better practices if I had any actual pro coder's advice.

Last year I started weight lifting at the gym to take care of my body and feel good again. Working out makes me feel accomplished, productive and sometimes, that burn is all I need. I work in childcare so I’ve been sick a lot last year and right when I wanted to get into running last September, I got pneumonia and was out for weeks. I used to go to the gym 4 times a week and this week I successfully started again, finished all my four workouts at the gym and pushed through even when my period left me all unmotivated! Here’s to more consistency:)

Yay!

I've been single for a few years now, and I'm quite the introvert. However today I decided to take myself to lunch! I actually had a great time I thought I would feel awkward going into a restaurant without any company but it wasn't too bad I've just been tired of isolating and feeling lonely

I've been off work sick so yesterday I decided to sit down and finish all the books I bought because they sounded cool or started but didn't finish. I didn't finish all of them (it's a very long list lmao) but I did the maths and apparently I read around 1200 pages! A good chunk of that was graphic novels but still!

Cars are ridiculously expensive in my country compared to the average salary, so paying upfront (without installments) for a car here is not easy for the average worker, but I made it, finally, after a long time trying to save for it!

And I made it to an appointment that was at 9:40am!

So, we have a communal mailbox, that's at the end of our street, instead of individual mailboxes, and today is the first day I've walked my dog down to the mailbox since I got attacked by my ex-neighbors dog in Oct of '22 (I stopped walking her before the attack itself happened, due to the aggressive dog, but it's still been since mid '22)

I’ve been prolonging getting my oil changed until it no longer could go another drive without it because of financial reasons and having social anxiety…. Well it was time and I finally did it! Such a big pressure off of my chest

Have an essay due next Tuesday and I was so worried about it cause I have like 1000 other things to do but I finished it! At least the first draft. I still have to edit but it’s basically done! And I’m so proud because I have ADHD and I can never focus on stuff and it’s been bad this semester cause its my FINAL college semester and I’m so worried that I’ll fall behind and not graduate. But this is given me another burst of hope ~I guess~

Anyway catch my ass at college graduation in a month

I've still got a problem. I can't stomach 12 steps, but I'm not living in filth anymore. I also didn't crap out and just trash them. I rinsed each can and got them in the recycling bin. I can see my floor again.

I did a lot of crying today, but I’ve decided I’m going to therapy. I’m gonna have to get help to pay for it, but I’m gonna do it and I’m gonna make my dad pay for it because he didn’t pay child support

I'm a highschooler who has been working to a goal I was proud of, I got accepted into a program where I can earn an associates degree by the time I graduate (a big deal to get into this program), and given what I want to do when I'm older this is really setting my on the right path. A path to success and getting that future. However, not very many people seem to care... My parents were their usual selfs and hardly acknowledged me, my aunt has undertones of thinking I'm not capable, and I haven't really told anyone else. Literally all I got from my dad was "hm" and my mom said "yay" like I wasn't expecting a dinner or a celebration party but I was at least hoping to be able to talk to them without them getting mad at me. My best friend's mom who doesn't like me much was even more excited then my parents.... Oh, my teacher was also mildly excited. Right now I'm just having a hard time accepting that my childhood isn't and won't ever be the same as other people's. I really wanted them to be proud of me, it's hard to remember when I was a kid and they'd be proud of me simply existing vs now, though I guess they pretty much acted the same when I was younger.... Anyways, if I could just get like a high five or a good job I'd be pretty happy. Thanks.

Edit: I've been reading all of your comments and I got to say, I really started to tear up. This means so much to me truly, thank you.

I am the smartest three year old to ever live on this planet

When I took the LSAT, I didn’t get the score I wanted, but I didn’t give up. I didn’t get into law school the first time I applied, but I kept pushing, and I got in—I became a first-generation law student. When my grades weren’t where I wanted them to be, I reviewed my exams, met with my professors, and shifted my focus to truly understanding the material rather than just preparing for cold calls. I didn’t qualify for moot court, so I helped bring back Phi Alpha Delta’s Mock Team to my school for the first time in over 13 years, creating an opportunity for mentorship and growth. When networking opportunities were lacking, I launched Resume Speed Dating, which connected students with attorneys and helped people land jobs they might not have otherwise. I failed the July bar exam, and while it was devastating, it wasn’t the end of my journey—it was just a retake. I came back stronger, passed the exam, and after I’m sworn in, I will be the first attorney in my family.

After being unemployed for two years, I have been looking for a new job for a month. I got a new job with a really good wage that will help me to move out. I actually worked at my new job for 23 days and I just passed training. I failed the first test and I felt so down about it but I studied and tried again and passed today!!!!! I’m so happy!!

I had been putting off getting my first pap smear because it was so hard and overwhelming to find care in my area that wasn't booked out half a year ahead, so when I went home over spring break I got in with a Gyno PA and I asked all the questions and had a long talk with her about what to expect and exactly what would happen. I was so nervous because I've heard in the past about how many women experience intense discomfort when having their cervix examined but I took a tylenol and one of my emergency calm pills, and even though there was a little pain my Doc was amazing and let me advocate for myself, and I ended up having a great day! Now I don't have to worry about it for another 3 years and I'm proud of myself for being on top of my health :)

I have been putting it off for over a decade because of no self-confidence. Today I decided that enough was enough; I have a novel I truly want to write and I wrote my first few pages!

As a hobby, my BFF and I have a podcast and we finally got a little recognition - we made the "Top 50" on Goodpods (#39 on the weekly chart for Relationship podcasts and #47 for the full month of March)! It's not much, but we're finally getting a decent number of listens, so that feels good!

And now I’m able to knit socks!

I’ve been a crocheter for decades and always told myself that knitting was just not for me: “I can’t handle using two needles instead of one hook, I’m just not smart enough”

At age 44 I finally kicked that self lie to the curb and decided to learn. I found some great YouTube channels that helped me and now have the confidence to use not just two needles, but five!

Never in my whole adult life (I'm 34) have I opted to eat peas. Hated them. Refuse them. Won't touch them. I want to like them, but I can't stand the taste.

My son who is 1.5 years old is expanding his palette. He loves beans because they're small and he can pinch them with his fingers and put them in his mouth. I thought it would be good for him to try peas.

Except how can I demonstrate to eat peas when even I can't do it? We didn't even have any in the house.

So I bought some. Cooked them, and ate them with him. I finished a decent portion before I ran out of other things on my plate to eat them with so I left the rest. But I would say it was a portion the size of my fist so a pretty decent size, not like 1 or 2.

Funnily enough, my son refused to try it. But we'll keep going. It takes a few tries. I guess for us both. But I did it for him and it's something I wouldn't have done if not for him.

last year, i fell into a huge health crisis that severely impacted my life mentally, socially, physically, etc.

i was in the hospital longer than i was home most of the year with the longest trips (out of 6-7) being a little over a month straight in the hospital. i had a feeding tube, they taught me how to walk around the picu floor without passing out, i lost 22% of my body weight because i was unable to eat. i was miserable and had to drop out of traditional high school and the day i did i disappeared without telling my friends and nobody ever reached out to me to ask where i went. it broke me and i still tear up thinking about it because i genuinely could’ve been dead and they wouldn’t have cared to ask. there were points in my illness where i was afraid to fall asleep because i thought i would die.

fast forward to this year, i got put on a new miraculous drug, which has put me in remission in my condition. i gained 8 pounds and still counting because i can eat 3 meals a day now and its very exciting! i accumulated enough credits to graduate from my new school and i graduated a few weeks back. and i have now been accepted in a college in texas (im in california) as a pre-nursing major!

i hate that i know im lonely now, but im hopeful in friends that i know college will bring me! i honestly can’t wait to start fresh ☺️

edit: meant to put country in the caption. whoops!

This was like a week ago, but I never really talked to anyone about it. He’s been harassing me and begging for me back and stuff like that despite me being happy in a new relationship. I was having trouble ignoring him, because 1. I just genuinely felt guilty, as if my actions were causing him pain, and I was obligated to speak to him. 2. Every time I blocked him, he’d make a new phone number or account. FINALLY, some people reached out to me saying he’s been fucking around with other girls, to which im like in a relationship so I don’t care but I figure I’ll do the right thing, confirm to the other girl that he’s still actively trying to get me back, calling me every single day. One thing leads to another, group chat is made to call out his BS, him and I argue, I tell him the truth and curse him out kind of, and finally I haven’t heard from him since. I feel so relieved to have him out of my life, no longer causing issues, no longer guilting me into talking to him, no longer making me feel like a bad person on a daily basis. Yay! Nobody else seems to recognize it, but this was a big accomplishment for me. I’m very easily manipulated, even if I have the self awareness to know im being manipulated, im such a doormat I still let it happen. But I blocked him, I stood up for myself, I prioritized my current and healthy relationship, it feels good.