...it is literally killing me. My "official" hours are 11am to 7pm, but there's just so much work to do I end up starting earlier in the day (9am, 8am, 7am even) and then I end at around 2 or 3am. This is getting to be a daily thing, and what cracks me up is my manager saying "I notice you've been doing OT (overtime) a lot now". Why IS that, do you think? My office bestie says don't be a hero, when it hits 7 just leave. I said, I'm NOT being a hero, you know I have stuff outside of work, what I'm doing is the BARE MINIMUM just to keep my head above water, plus, I know I'm the first link in a chain: if I'm late with my deliverables, everybody waits for me to finish, everybody gets delayed. "So?" she says. "Make `em wait! They should adjust to you." I don't know, I just can't do that.
I don't know what golden touch or lucky charm my boss has but he is literally bringing in more clients than ever before -- and EVERYBODY is doing the work of at least 2 people each (office bestie is doing the work of 3 people). My own work (I manage a team of 5) also crosses into other departments not primarily my own so I guess you could say I'm also "multitasking on steroids". We don't get healthcare because employee benefits are not a thing in the country my company is based in, meanwhile, I'm literally paying through the nose for healthcare cos my long hours are starting to make me sick (like my blood pressure is going up that kind of thing). My doctors tell me I need to get more sleep and eat right ~ sounds pretty basic but obviously they have no idea what it's like to work in marketing x advertising lol.
I am GRATEFUL for my job. I had to pray so much for it, because at my age (let's face it, the workplace is ageist) there was no way I was going to get hired really unless by some miracle. It's just... well you see how it is. And what really kills me is the long hours kind of don't leave me time outside of work to do other things... (And here we have some tech exec in the news saying anybody who looks for work-life balance isn't committed to their job or success or something like that) In spite of me really needing the money (landlady's raising the rent + maintenance meds), I've tried to resign (twice), but my boss says don't resign, we can TALK about it instead -- yeah well, while we're talking, my body is THIS close to giving way. Monday again tomorrow, and I think I'm starting to dread it -- I spend Saturdays reeling / trying to recover from the week (especially Thursday night and all of Friday because those are the busiest days) -- and in physical therapy LOL (because I ache all over from the long hours at my desk) -- then I spend Sunday thinking "tomorrow, I have to do it (the weeklong gauntlet) all over again" </3
And even if I do quit (OR get fired because I am barely keeping up / slowing down already because they keep dumping more and MORE work on me (I tried to get some work off my plate, but manager says "oh no, I prefer you still do it because you're just so much better at (blah blah bullsht)" -- where will I go? Who is gonna hire this broken old granny in an industry where the work is done by AI and the 20-somethings? I'm trying to keep my chin up and just smile, you know? And stay grateful? Which I am? But... ...yeah