Okay guys..here we go. I used to be seriously addicted to instant noodles...still am..like eating a whole pack of Indomie in one or two days. Eating Maggi, bulak noodles etc. It was my ultimate obsession/comfort food, but it left me feeling miserable, depressed, and anxious often. I missed out on life experiences because I wasn’t confident in my body, and it kept me from forming connections. I’ve spent so much time alone and feel like I wear a mask around others. Don't get me wrong though, I feel so much comfort in my own presence and so much at peace but people do treat you differently when you don’t look a certain way, especially in uni, and I want to feel prettier and healthier, even if I don’t get more friends.
So, I made a change. I wrote a letter, packed all my junk food away in a box, taped it up and shoved it under my bed. It’s been 8 days without chips, packaged snacks, or chocolate. I’ve had microwave popcorn and have ordered food and did overeat maybe, but that’s it. I did tore away the tape after 3 days but idk how didn't actually eat it and put it under my bed again. I think it's slowly getting better? When cravings hit, I try distracting myself—chatting with ChatGPT to keep me strong T-T or eating something healthy like Greek yogurt with honey (even if I don’t love it..I mostly hate it but it's okay after the first bite I guess) or microwave extra buttery popcorn (390 cal in 1 packet) or something else.
I get an Indian tiffin food service 4 days a week, so I don’t have to think about meals a lot as a REALLY busy uni student who is juggling with still burnout? and maybe depression and def anxiety, and I’m sticking to it. No weight loss yet, but I think feel freer, more confident, and just a bit lighter mentally. I’m not sure when I’ll be ready to indulge without guilt, but for now, I’m treating myself to an iced latte or croissant when I need a little indulgence.
I almost gave up again today but I know I will 100% regret it..I think I'm just tired of the cycle and try to make myself believe that I'm not missing any major experiences..but making space for new and different ones.
Anyone else have any experiences with this? How long it took to see changes? Ik it's CICO but still taking one step at a time for now..
TL;DR: 8 days without instant noodles or junk food. Packed it away, sticking to healthier options, and feeling a little more confident. No weight loss yet, but maybe progress?