I underwent an osseointegration surgery in February, today my wife noticed the stump wobble! Enjoy! For the record, we both find the wobbling quite cute. I mean, it all looks weird anyway so some wobble only makes it better!

I stood there for ages. I untangled my hair, washed away months of grime, exfoliated, shaved, did a skincare routine, put on body lotion, a touch of makeup and changed out of pjs into a fresh new outfit I've never worn. I sat outside in the sun and waved at strangers. This was my first time outside in months. I started reading a book.

Today I've stopped waiting to die, if only for a day. Today I'm a person. I would never dream of treating another human being as badly as I treat myself. I am kind and deserve kindness. I am compassionate and deserve compassion. Today I gave myself the hug I so desperately needed. Today I forgave myself.

Maybe this only lasts for one day and I go back to the abyss of depression, but at least for one day I got to feel like a human.

For one day I reminded myself that I'm a person. I deserve to live. I matter.

Edit: I want to reply to every single comment but at the moment I'm too busy ugly crying just reading these. I can't put into words what your comments mean and how much of a gift you're giving me. Thank you thank you thank you!

Edit 2: I'm reading each and every one of your comments and messages. Nothing I did today compares to the smiles I'm getting from reading your comments. I love you all with every fibre of my being. You're angels. Today went from a good day that made me feel human to an amazing day I felt a spark of hope and connection that I haven't felt in ages. Even the very few negative comments - yeah it's gross but rock bottom isn't pretty. I also stopped brushing my teeth for a time and barely ate anything. I was literally wasting away. Although you'd be surprised how little you sweat when you're doing absolutely nothing in an air conditioned room. To all those offering hugs, yes please it's probably safe to hug me now. I LOVE YOU.

Edit 3: OMFG I did laundry and painted my nails and made and ate pasta. I also booked three appointments over the next month - psychiatrist, dentist and hairdresser. YOU ALL DID THAT. And holy shit the awards - just...thank you. I'm overwhelmed by the kindness here, I had mentally prepared myself for a lot more nastiness when posting this. I'm just basking in the glow y'all, your validation will be my placeholder when I can't do it for myself ❤️