r/leaves • u/Rohanahan • 1d ago
I'm 2 weeks in and really struggling with boredom?
Nothing seems to entertain or satisfy me at all, I've lost all interest in doing things and really need some inspiration for activities to be doing to take my mind off it. It's so difficult as being high made everything fun and I could just chill out all day in my chair watching YouTube and playing games.
Now I've got nothing and no direction for my free time. I feel like I'm just wasting my weekend away?
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u/Crucial444 1d ago
I recommend watching movies, going on walks, and spending time with your loved ones. Just do anything you can to take your mind off it. It’s gonna be hard for a bit, but if you just wait it out, it will be so much easier for you sooner than you realize. Good luck to you, and remember you’re not alone in feeling this way. 2 weeks from now you will notice a huge difference, and 2 weeks from then you will as well, just got to give it time.
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u/Jessiejessie7788 1d ago
I find it helpful to know that restlessness is a withdrawal symptom that we need to ride the waves of.
Physical activity helps so much, when I'm feeling bored or restless, I put on a podcast or some music and go for a long walk. Journalling or reading also help a lot.
Depending on your interests, maybe some kind of project where youre working with your hands. Playing music, building something, cooking etc.
Your through the hardest part, keep going, you've got this 😊
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u/Rohanahan 1d ago
Thank you, yes I think I've decided I need to go on a long walk tomorrow. I also want to try writing or something but don't know where to start. I would always save my favourite podcasts for when I'm high so it feels depressing listening to them without. Feels like I'm ruining their potential and not getting to most out of them.
Is irritability also a symptom?
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u/Jessiejessie7788 1d ago
Yes, it's normal to feel irritable too! You could start by writing 3 things you are grateful for everyday. I also like to journal on the question what do I desire to change in my life and in myself. It helps give clarity to what my life might look look moving forward.
Perhaps some new podcasts or an audiobook? Dopamine nation is a great book to understand addiction and the author Anna Lembke has done some great podcasts.
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u/Marinbla 1d ago
Irritability is a major one for many people. I'm still quite irritable after five weeks but I'm handling it better and better. Keep it up! You are doing well!
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u/EvidenceOk9393 1d ago
I feel your struggle. But please don't consider yourself wasting but growing. 2 weeks it's the very beginning. It will get better.
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u/Rohanahan 1d ago
Thank you that's a good tip I need to work on framing better but it's so difficult. I tell myself, why can't I just smoke in moderation on weekends only. But I know I can't :(
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u/EvidenceOk9393 1d ago
Moderation is way more difficult the abstinence. Don't think about a lifetime sober, think about today, and then tomorrow. One day at the time. We need to calm down anxiety not feeding it, so little by little, no rush, no self loathing. It will be good.
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u/Consistent_Purple473 1d ago
I feel you! I brought some cheap markers and a pad and have been doodling alot. I've been thinking of a dip in the sea since I'm near the coast but it's a little bit too cold and I'm a chicken. I recently got involved in amdram too which has kept me occupied a little. I went for a couple pints but that's made me feel not very good so I wouldn't recommend it. I've been facetiming my gran and my mum too. Hot drinks help relax me a bit as well as hot showers with a nice new soap or a new shampoo. Let's try and keep going x
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u/Rohanahan 1d ago
Thanks for the response and the tips. I've literally just been lying around on my bed on twitter all day. Tried to play games but just get bored or frustrated. I don't have that many people in my life so socialising is out for now. I've done a load of little jobs and showered too with lots of nice soap, I've been drinking tea all day and got myself a takeaway. I'm so fundamentally bored though. It feels like there is nothing to do in town which I know is stupid but my mind is blank with ideas. X
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u/Silver_Wealth8428 12h ago
id take boredom every fkn day on pre psychosis.
sign me the fuk in.