I was bakered for ideation without intention. I missed my scheduled therapy the next day because I got there after doctors went home. Incredibly upsetting malpractice.
I was treated like a criminal (my record is spotless). It was one of the worst nights of my life and they did nothing to improve my mental health, just let me go the next day. It was seriously awful and only induced a ton more ideation and made me feel like I was being punished horribly for being sad. That’s not the kind of place I’d want to go for help on the brink. Having been there before now I know in the heat of the moment I’d probably rather jump than go back. Which is CRAZY. It really needs to change. I went from being hopeful to being completely terrified of mental health systems.
Yeah I always said I’d kill myself before I got sent back to one of those places which is really fucked up. Thank goodness I got better, thank you ketamine therapy
Depends on the place! If you were on my unit we likely would have had fun. I used to run daily YouTube music video groups, hallway bowling, origami, optical illusions, and a bunch more for my recreation groups and I always made an effort to make being at the hospital better for people. I’d do my best to provide any printable activities I could. Of course I did therapies and stuff too, but the last thing I wanted was for people to feel worse for seeking help. My hospital was pretty good at not admitting people for ideation only and generally would set people up with outpatient resources if they weren’t an immediate risk to themselves.
I had to sleep in my clothes (wasn’t given a change) and couldn’t brush my teeth. I was in a small box (a clear prison cell basically) with nothing but a hard couch for over five hours crying my eyes out. Then when I was finally moved to the bigger box with other women the only recreation was a single TV. And I couldn’t sleep on my hard cot through it because the 15 minute rounds they do feel like 5 minutes when you’re trying to sleep, so I was awake all night. The dude taking my financial information to figure out how much they could charge me for my unwilling incarceration had the gall to complain about his kidney stones and how hard he had it. The case manager told me people not in crisis get bakered all the time. And the entire time I was FUMING because I was being treated like I was crazy and dangerous when I was just trying to tell my psychiatrist I needed a change in my meds because I felt like shit. I was so upset I couldn’t eat the entire night and next day.
I will never work with another psychiatrist or any mental health professional who cannot tell me the difference between ideation and intention. I cry every time I talk about this. My psychiatrist was a gaslighting bitch and I have completely lost respect for the profession as a result. If I hadn’t met amazing therapists prior I probably wouldn’t seek help again. People are right to be scared of getting mental help.
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u/Booksarepricey 1d ago edited 1d ago
I was bakered for ideation without intention. I missed my scheduled therapy the next day because I got there after doctors went home. Incredibly upsetting malpractice.
I was treated like a criminal (my record is spotless). It was one of the worst nights of my life and they did nothing to improve my mental health, just let me go the next day. It was seriously awful and only induced a ton more ideation and made me feel like I was being punished horribly for being sad. That’s not the kind of place I’d want to go for help on the brink. Having been there before now I know in the heat of the moment I’d probably rather jump than go back. Which is CRAZY. It really needs to change. I went from being hopeful to being completely terrified of mental health systems.