r/offmychest 21h ago

Please read it

I don’t usually talk about this kind of stuff, but I need to get it off my chest.

There’s this girl I really like. Back then, me and my friends used to joke around and say who we’d wanna f**k, and we included her too. It felt like dumb teenage stuff at the time, but now I regret it. She’s not someone to joke about like that. She’s special. And I hate that I was ever part of something that disrespected her like that.

Now, I don’t just have a crush. I genuinely love her. I’ve dreamed about her, literally—she’s shown up in my sleep more than once. It’s like she’s stuck in my head and my heart. I think about her all the time, and not in a messed up way. I love her for who she is.

But if she’s not the one for me, if she’s not meant to be in my life like that… then I want God to take her out of my heart. Because this feeling hurts when you know you might never be with them. I don’t want to hold onto something that’s not meant to last. I just want peace.

Thanks for reading.

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u/Own_Negotiation897 20h ago

Two things - You say you love her. What is it about her that you love?

Listen to Garth Brooks Unanswered prayers on YouTube

Hugs big sister

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u/[deleted] 20h ago

Everything

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u/Own_Negotiation897 20h ago

Sorry sounds like you love the idea of her but don’t really know her. Like know specifics about childhood memories. Hopes and dreams for her future. How she feels about certain things.

If you disagree with me, name five specific things you love about her. Being beautiful and smart cannot be listed.

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u/babeepunk 20h ago

Do you spend time with her? Are you friends?

If not, then it may be more of an infatuation than anything else. It feels real but it's not.

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u/[deleted] 20h ago

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u/[deleted] 20h ago

She doesn’t know that we talked abt her

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u/Electronic-Worker-10 20h ago

Ask her out before it’s too late

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u/[deleted] 20h ago

She might not like me and even if i tell her whole class will be on my ass

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u/Electronic-Worker-10 20h ago

So what, if she doesn’t like you at least you tried; if she does on the other hand…. Now the class will be clowning regardless of the answer.