positivity and musings for the week

[u/strawberry-fawn]

[u/clxmentiine]

thanks for these. genuinely benefited from them

currently cycling between "we're so back" and "it's so over" like 5x a day tbh lol

[u/strawberry-fawn → u/clxmentiine]

i’m glad they were helpful, i find that i doomscroll a lot and having some positivity helps :) hope u feel better soon! <3

[u/Active-Head4154 → u/clxmentiine]

currently cycling between "we're so back" and "it's so over" like 5x a day tbh lol

Same here, just wondering how abnormal this is? very tiring

[u/clxmentiine → u/Active-Head4154]

unfortunately in my case it's been a very long, exhausting phase of this kind of state, w a few longer spells of motivation and deep depression mixed in-between the quicker back-and-forths. it is extremely tiring! :( i think it is because of personal stressors + the state of the world, etc.

the most success that i have for getting myself a respite from it is like to choose one particular motivation or need or desire to hyperfixate/obsess over for a time being. it's hard not to let real life break u out of the spell of it but sometimes it's somewhat manageable, depending on how good you are at forcing something like that mentally. this disrupts the flow of the teeter-tottering just enough to maybe destabilize the pattern of it for a while. in my situation there are a lot of long-term stressors that have accumulated and have yet to leave my immediate surroundings/circumstances, and so when the novelty of my new fixation fades i return to the torment unfortunately.

am like at peak mental/emotional exhaustion tho for sure haha. dunno what life would even look like if more stabilized at this point. maybe someday

[u/Active-Head4154 → u/clxmentiine]

I think you are onto something, I'm saying a lot that the gym saved me, it's one of the only things that are consistently making me feel satisfied. But my problem is that I'm not sure even what I desire, I'm a resident and I'm going back and forth multiple times a day from "yes this is the best residency I could have chosen" to "I need to change otherwise I'll be unhappy for all my life". I'm also really bad at working toward a goal, I just somewhat managed to finish every step of my education since high school without putting much effort, and now I start to see the bad effect of that. what are your long term stressors? You can pm me if you want, not with the chat because I don't see new messages there

[u/thesleeplessfaun]

just what I needed

[u/yearningforkindness]

thanks for the positivity, I'm considering printing some of those and have them on my wall. have a nice week!

[u/strawberry-fawn → u/yearningforkindness]

you’re welcome, i hope you have a great week!!

[u/bIackberrying]

thanks 🍓💌

[u/Illustrious_Gain2117]

Beautiful

[u/CalligrapherSouth962]

PMA!