That's exactly what I did, until I read your comment. Thank you. I know I have a form of attention disorder, but society and comments like this tell me not to do anything about it cause 'everyone thinks they have it' and they're all idiots if they do think that. Because of this, I've never done anything about it, even though it's been affecting everything in my life lately, especially work.
Thank you /u/themangodess for making realize that I've just been listening to cynics who are themselves just following a crowd to try and be liked by the karma train.
I just don't like these kinds of pet peeves people have, because while you might be on a train with other people questioning if they have undiagnosed ADHD, you shouldn't hop off just because some of them might be hypocondriacs. At the end of the day you're an individual who thinks/knows you have ADHD and is questioning it, and that's a good thing. Getting to know yourself in any way is always a good thing.
I wish I could tell everyone in this thread who is thinking the same thing as you to just go get screened for it.
I was screened as a child and was found to be "borderline" ADHD. My parents never got treatment for me. I barely graduated high school because of massive anxiety and depression (both of which I've since learned are extremely co-morbid with ADHD), did much better in college because I met my hyper-organized girlfriend (now wife), but struggled for the past 10 years with getting work done, staying on top of bills that I had the money to pay, but would forget about, and sticking with anything I set out to do.
About 6 months ago (after a few months of studying ADHD, including watching all of Russell Barkley's lectures, all while at work I might add), I finally got diagnosed and got on Adderall.
It was absolutely life changing. Before I got on meds, I would wake up, go to work, dread all the shit that had piled up that I hadn't done yet, and hop on Reddit, and still not do anything all day. For a period of about a year I literally did almost no work at all. I was constantly afraid that someone would find out, and I'd lose my job. It also made me question everything in my life. I loved my job, and yet I couldn't bring myself to do the work. I beat myself up every day for being lazy, and told myself that tomorrow I would finally buckle down and get to work, but of course not never happened.
The first day I took Adderall, I hopped on Reddit like I normally did, and after about a half hour I thought to myself, "okay, I don't really feel like Redditing anymore," and I got to work.
Since that first day on meds, I have not spent more than a half hour a day on Reddit during work hours. I actually get shit done. Im better about staying on top of bills and other life responsibilities. I'm also the happiest I've been, maybe ever in my adult life. I feel like I'm finally in control of my life and that I really can accomplish whatever I set out to do.
What I'm trying to say is that you have nothing to lose by getting evaluated. Maybe you have it, maybe you don't, but what do you stand to lose by finding out?
For me, it was hands down the best decision I've ever made in my life.
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u/fakeittilyoumakeit May 30 '17
That's exactly what I did, until I read your comment. Thank you. I know I have a form of attention disorder, but society and comments like this tell me not to do anything about it cause 'everyone thinks they have it' and they're all idiots if they do think that. Because of this, I've never done anything about it, even though it's been affecting everything in my life lately, especially work.
Thank you /u/themangodess for making realize that I've just been listening to cynics who are themselves just following a crowd to try and be liked by the karma train.