Hello fellas! I just took a nap so wow! I feel like I want to share a bit. It’s funny how silent is this part of reddit comparing to adHd forums right? 😭

Jokes aside, I came to write first because I wanted to know more people into the same situation and second because I got a theory on work.

I’ve been dealing with low energy levels since a child. My mom used to say that I was pretty easy as baby and I spend most of the time sleeping. She just closed the blinds on midday and told me “it’s night” and I fell asleep.

In my younghood I found out caffeine and I became really addicted. I could easily drank like seven expressos or two moka pots in a regular day. It was my way to bring myself down to earth and make possible to follow the rithm of life.

This caffeine addiction depleted my energy level (overstressing my adrenal glands) while triggering me an hyperactivity like state that imitated the erratic and chaotic issues of the strong adHd. This was not only embarrasing me most of the time but also the amount of trauma that some of us carry through our life also made me act in a reckless-aggressive way so I decided to quit stimulants.

I healed a lot and I can handle everything better at my age (38) but I want to be able to have a lucid life. Now that I quit stimulants I find my self lost. Constantly day dreaming and tired. Someone descreibed it as “having the head full of water”. This bring me to a jobless situation followed by a depression state but that’s just the context.

Following my experiences I had the idea of enroll in a Vipassana retreat. For those who doesn’t know Vipassana is an old meditation technique born in Myanmar that is done worldly for free in diferent retreats around the world through the Dhamma org. This retreat lasted 10 days where you have to go to meditate around idk 6 hours at day or so while keeping total silence during these 10 days. Was hard.

When I finish my retreat my dad came to pick me up. My dad and me we never had a good relationship. Time later I found out that as the adhd is genetic he got a strong adHd (with a big H) and basically I couldn’t handle his erratic energy. He dealed with it being alcoholic and my house was a battlecamp every day. Exhausting for my adhd-pi that just wanted to chill.

So my dad came to pick me up after the retreat. My aggressive-chaotic dad. Mostly he start talking shit about someone, mostly politics/misoginy/racism etc. so everytime we meet I want to kill kim but this day, after meditating during 10 days, after he star talking I could feel how the emotion start growing in my chest.

It was weird because as I feel when the rage started on my chest I could recognise that that wasn’t my previous state. So if the rage wasn’t me I do not need to be drove by it. I start listening to him blaming while feeling how the rage was trying to get bigger in my chest. The most attention i out on my rage the less it grows. Was really cool tbh 😋

So as far as I been struggling with energy lately and I do not want to stress my adrenal glands I’ve been thinking about prioritising focus over energy. I’m about to start a MBSR training which is a “mindfullness” based meditation. The idea is to put focus on the prefrontal cortex activation.

Mindfullnes in short is about putting maximum focus on whatever you do. Even if you eat, walk or comb your hair. Focusmaxxxing.

This guys is my experience and my current theory, my current state of thinking. The idea is that if I can’t do as much as other because of my energy maybe I can make every second count putting the attention on first place.

I supposse that most of you as my self struggle with screens and every other kind of modern distraction so let me know. What do you think about my experience. Do you guys had similar ideas? I’m happy to know you and to share so please let’s talk :)

So, I've been treated with Ritalin, Vyvanse, and Atentah. Stimulants are great for productivity, but I don't like the "drugged" feeling they make me feel (Atentah didn't work at all). When I took them, I felt more aware, I can't explain it very well. My reasoning became clear, my thinking became easy. Now I'm trying to get off ADHD medication (maybe I'll try BUP with a new doctor), and it feels like I'm impaired all the time. You know when you're hungover and it's hard to think? I'm living life through a veil. I have to make an effort to think, even to remember certain words I have to concentrate. It feels like my head is full of water... It's strange because it was normal when I was taking the medication, the naturalness of my thoughts. I've never been a stupid person, but now that's how I feel.

NOTE: I had COVID and I'm wondering if it could be a sequel.

Does anyone else feel this way too and know anything to improve this feeling?

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First question: how do you distinguish it from other conditions? For example: fatigue, if you are autistic executive dysfunction due to autism, dissociation, burnout?

Second question: how do stimulants generally feel for those with inattentive ADHD? I understand ADHD-I can manifest more easily as fatigue (rather than restlessness), is that right? Wouldn't you feel stimulated rather than "calmed down" on stims then?

Third question: ADHD people are described as often finding things "boring", but is it possible to rather find everything "overwhelming" instead? Like you just don't have the brain power to process anything? (Organize, process information, speak, etc?)

Fourth: Is it possible to have greater executive function in some areas, like organizing information such as appointments or admin (but struggling with brain energy still), and struggling badly with organizing space for example?

Fifth (and last) question: Is it possible to start out in life with some traits (organization problems, messiness, forgetting or not keeping track of things - like I forgot entire bank accounts I had-, novelty seeking) and develop others (focus problems and procrastination, having less and less capacity) later?

I am not seeking diagnosis, I am diagnosed, I am just trying to understand how this works 🙏

Thanks :)

I can appreciate all the time and effort being spent to keep hold of bare stick.

So, finally i can relax after 2 years. Never been this relaxed in a while. But my mind is blank, i can't focuse and i feel unmotivated. I trying to not rush things this time. But i feel like my mind has given up on tasks. Thinking critically has never been my strong suit. There was a time when i could think and plan rigorously, but i was pressured by my Family to do things differently. Parental pressure and family trauma had made it worse at that time. I don't feel complete anyomore. Don't have the energy i used to have, or maybe i never had the Energy.

So... i got diagnosed a while ago with adhd but the innatentive type without the hyperactivity. Funny enough, the reason why i started seeking help is because i used to be an avid reader when i was a kid/teen. I had no problem reading books, even boring ones. Literature was the only subject i succeded at school because of my love for books and reading comprehension. A few years ago, i found myself unable to focus on books. I was skim reading and when i slowed my brain and eyes down i was bored. I got frustrated and sad. I gave up on reading because i cant even read a paragraph without my brain losing it. Basically, adhd took away from me one of the few things i truly loved. I got diagnosed and my doctor told me to go on meds. But also, they told me maybe physical reading was not an option for me anymore due to my adhd. Anyone else struggles with this?. Any solution/hope?.

I want to start this off by saying I am not trying to self diagnose, and I’m sorry if I offend anyone in posting here. I just don’t know what to do. I’m a 22 year old female and I can’t seem to get anyone - therapist or psychiatrist - to listen to me when I say I think that I have ADHD-PI. My mother and sister are both diagnosed and treated (Adderall), I feel like I check every box and still these providers are chalking up my symptoms to borderline PD and/or emotional trauma. Some of my symptoms.. -Horrible horrible short term memory. I forget to take my meds, where I put my keys, I miss appointments etc EVEN with the mitigation steps I’ve taken. Seriously sometimes I feel like I have early onset dementia

-Serious brain fog. I have to think so hard to pull information out of my brain that I KNOW that I know.

-Can’t stay focused. I’ve always hated reading because I have to read the same thing several times to get it to stick, it’s exhausting.

-Can’t seem to finish projects. I’ll get half way through something, get tired of it and won’t pick it up for months.

-I have very little ability to finish tasks EXCEPT my one designated cleaning day. On that day, I can’t focus on anything (to include eating) other than cleaning my apartment until it’s done.

-My sleep quality/duration does not affect my ability to focus or think much if at all. When I’m super tired it gets worse but nothing I’ve found makes it better.

-Big emotions or none at all. I’m either having a total meltdown, on cloud 9, or I feel like a shell of a human being.

I’m sure there’s more that I’m not thinking of right this second, but I’m going back to college soon and desperately need help. I don’t know what to do, I need to be medicated and I can’t get anyone to listen to me. Please help.

Note* My mother and sister live in Oregon, I live in Tennessee. I haven’t seen the same providers they have about the issue. I have also taken a million approaches to these symptoms before coming to this conclusion. Blood labs (general, thyroid, even testosterone), diet, exercise, a sleep study, and I’m currently on Wellbutrin/ in talk therapy.

TL;DR - Inviting others to interact with r/ADHDgradANDdocSCHOOL for grad students with ADHD. We have a discord server & upcoming support group as well, will need to DM me for an invite.

Hey y'all, I'm extending an invitation for graduate/professional/doctoral students to interact with the r/ADHDgradANDdocSCHOOL subreddit. It's associated with my discord server ADHD vs Grad School, which is geared toward providing support for students in graduate, doctoral, and professional programs. I had it restricted for a while, but I would love to reach more graduate students with ADHD who are looking for support & have therefore changed the settings to public.

If you're interested in joining our server &/or joining our upcoming support group (it will be over a discord video call), feel free to send a DM request ( u/Huppelkut416 ) my way!

I was diagnosed with inattentive type adhd last last year. I’ve tried adderall and concerta and now I’m on vyvanse. I feel them affecting me but I’m not sure if it’s the right affect. I’ve read that when people finally try stimulants it’s like they have a calming focusing affect, but I feel energetic happy and a little distractible. It kind of has me questioning my diagnosis. I’m wondering if the affect is different for people with strictly inattentive type?

Just had a realization and need to know if anyone else understands. My whole life I was moving in slow motion and the world was moving in fast forward and I didn’t even realize it. Then I got diagnosed with ADHD and put on adderall and I realized all the sudden it felt like the world was moving in slow motion. Then I realized I was able to do the same amount of things as most people can do in a day. Then I got a tolerance in a month and now I’m back to moving in slow motion and the world moving in fast forward but it feels so much worse because now I am aware of it and no matter how hard I try I just can’t do the same amount of things as most people can. Just need to see if anyone else feels this.

To me, it’s also “trouble falling asleep disorder” like it takes all night, no matter what I do, usually the sun is just starting to come up by the time I start to feel tired. It’s also “trouble waking up disorder” and that is an understatement. Every day, I wake up feeling worse than when I went to sleep. My body feels completely drained of energy, I’m so tired, it takes hours, and multiple cups of coffee and energy drinks just to be able to stay awake. It isn’t till like dinner time I get energy. It’s also “can’t remember shit disorder” and “I didn’t mean to make that mess disorder” and “I have so many great ideas for projects disorder” and “shit did I just waste the last six hours on my phone” disorder” and “when you ask me to do something I hate you have no idea how much effort it takes to actually force myself to do it disorder”. To my husband, the only neurotically in the house it’s “what did you do all day disorder” and “how do you keep forgetting the same stuff after 15 years of me reminding you every day disorder” and “you’ve certainly got the kids trained to be just like you disorder” I know he can be a jerk, but I probably would be too if I was neurotypical and had to put up with me(and my two mini me’s) every day.

My question is how long after my last dose of Adderall will a quantitative amphetamine test or a confirmatory test remain positive? I’m having trouble finding information on a quantitative amphetamine urine test. I know it’s more sensitive than just a regular UDS. I had been without Adderall for almost 8 days when I took my second test after my regular UDS was negative. I’ve been on this medication 12 years and I hate to think my doctor will stop writing it because of some bad test results.

Hello, I’m new to this site and I was wondering if you could all help me. For a long time now I’ve been struggling with a few things that apparently correlates with inattentive ADHD (or so I’ve been told). Cut a long story shot, here it is... I find it hard to focus for a long time, i day dream quite a lot, when I read something I have to read it lots of times before it actually sinks in, I have absolutely no motivation what so ever, I can’t hold anything in my hands at all without fidgeting with it, I can only fall asleep if I’m rocking from side to side ( sounds weird, I know), constantly loosing/misplacing things, I have shocking money management skills, I have some problems controlling my anger, etc the list goes on. I was hoping all these things are just what makes me.. well.. me, but I thought I’d come and get your guys’ opinions first.

Thanks,

Firmpanda!

woahhhh so apparently other people have inattentive adhd and im shook because i didnt even know it was a thing until my therapist diagnosed me lol

I have a huge problem with procrastination. Mainly, I fall into the black hole of youtube. The thing is, while I'm procrastinating, I really hate it. I'll be watching some stupid video, but the whole time I'm thinking, "Man, I really should just get my things done so I can relax." I just can't seem to get started.