121
u/Hour-Bison765 8d ago
I don't need to be medicated. I'll just drink a gallon of coffee! has caffeine induced anxiety attack
19
u/boberbor 8d ago
Bro i had this few hours ago and i almost ended it all, it wss scary, like when i turned my eyes every time i could hear my heart beat, and grey images, aw man. Fuk this desiase.
9
u/Medical-Monarch-7274 8d ago
Are you ok?
7
u/boberbor 8d ago
No im actually tweaking rn, it wont stop, and idk i didnt take antidepressants for week now i am worried it might ve that for my eyes, but im scared
15
u/Medical-Monarch-7274 8d ago
Idk how to really help you with adhd at large, but drinking lots of water can help caffeine pass through your system faster, assuming that the caffeine is still the issue.
5
8
u/hibzyu 8d ago
coffee makes me sleepy 🫠
1
u/Equivalent-Income845 3d ago
Me too! I thought that was a sign of ADHD tbh. It doesn't work for me but it does make my heart palpitations worse..
67
u/KilroyLeges 8d ago
I am medicated and that still describes me. Doctors won’t prescribe higher dosage than I’m on, but it has me just at barely functional for portions of a day.
50
u/JazzyPlatypus 8d ago
Honestly, to me, this is the worst part.
In my head I have so many interests and passions and hobbies. In reality I can hardly get myself to start any of them, let alone maintain one long enough to become good at it or finish a single project.
26
u/EmbodiedUncleMother 8d ago
After taking a medication break from 10 years on Adderall, my doctor started me on methylphenidate. He started me on the lowest dose, which did nothing, so I was playing with the amount to find what worked best for me. But now I can't fill for over 2 weeks. It's brutal and idk what to do 😭
22
u/Aware-Home5852 8d ago
I switched to actually doing what I want and guess what! I get bored and change hobbies every 1-2-4 weeks
13
u/gorgon_heart 8d ago
Complaining about this is the exact thing that made my therapist suggest that I had ADHD. Bless that woman.
13
u/Highdef-Advertiser 8d ago
This is by far the worst aspect of ADHD for me. I can’t get myself to do things I genuinely like to the point that I question myself if I even like them.
12
11
u/KoellmanxLantern 8d ago
I struggle with this, too. I'm not a doctor, but what I do to cope is one of two things: 1 Do a chore. I feel weirdly guilty enjoying my hobbies, but starting a load of laundry or doing some dishes makes me feel like I've "earned" some recreation time. 2 Go outside. Like literally touching grass or getting some fresh air helps break me out of that weird headspace. Just 5 minutes of walking around is usually enough.
10
u/anjiemin 8d ago
Yep... I am planning to do it... It is for myself and I will not listen to other people. I should taken it a year ago. 😭
9
8
u/prettyprettything 8d ago
there’s a ton of movies i have plans to watch one day. but not now. for some reason i cannot bring myself to watch them right now.
3
6
u/SebinSun 7d ago
"ADHD is a superpower." or "You struggle because the systems weren't designed for you, it's all society's fault, it is not a disability." 🤡
2
u/Relative_Passion5102 6d ago
Yeah...lol it's kind of invalidating. I kinda hate this kind of fake positivity, like the only way to address sth is to ...deny it? Diminish it? And it kind of imposes and spreads a narrative that is really just tone person's experience and doesn't reflect all the hardship that it truly is. As for society, well, it does suck so 🌚
2
u/SebinSun 5d ago
Ikr? How come it is a superpower when we cannot do the things we need and the things we enjoy?.. Others can't relate because they just do what they want and need..
2
u/Relative_Passion5102 5d ago
Yep, if I am grateful not to have some other kind of evident disability (down syndrome, severe non-"high-functioning" autism or wtv), the fact of ADHD being invisible, non credible or fully acceptable makes it so hard. You are normal, you look normal and even mostly behave sort of normal.... I don't like feeling hopeless but it's also maddening having to deny the struggle. Indeed if you were down or visibly autistic you'd be limited in several areas and opportunities, which you're not if you're ADHD or the like, but it also means you have to face the same "normal" expectations and not just from others but from yourself. It's this constant pull between "fuck, but I can/could have this" and "it seems like it, it looks even like it, but I can't..." It's being fully aware of how stunted you are while not seeing it: a weird dualism. And somehow seeing other ADHD people making it makes you wonder. Though the trap may be that just like autism and whatever, any other mind, no two minds and no two conditions are the same - and by a laaaarge degree. Sorry, oversharing much?! Aye?
2
u/SebinSun 5d ago
No worries, share as much as you want. We need to remember that not only two minds are not the same but also people have different environments around them. Someone might have good support (academic, financial, emotional), be in their element from the start, etc etc. Even something like a sense of self-worth - so much depends on it in my life and I have to fight for it daily with myself but there are people who were born with a strong sense of self-worth. This is why we need to learn how to be kind to ourselves, be there for ourselves when it is hard. We already try to do our best - and our best is not the same with others, even not the same every day. ❤️
2
u/Relative_Passion5102 5d ago
👽🙏 so so hard but true
2
u/SebinSun 4d ago
What I have been doing is trying to trust the process. Tiny bit today, little bit next time. Maybe it feels like there is no progress but we don't see the full picture from where we are in the timeline. With time the results will be more noticeable, you will notice improvement, you will feel it. Good luck!
5
u/PeachyHalloween 8d ago
That's me! Meds help so much but even the strattera makes me jittery so I just live like this.
6
3
4
u/the_shadow_like_me 8d ago
I am medicated, but I’m also med sensitive. Haven’t been able to tolerate higher doses with the other stuff I have going on medically. Soooo this is still me 😭
5
3
3
3
3
3
u/ostapenkoed2007 6d ago
also the technically people who should support most: you do not have ADHD. you are normall smart kid. we never seen any problems.
yeah, the fuck. no one will see problems if i learned to hide them every day.
3
7
u/StatusFine6535 8d ago
Get medicated bro!! I hope you arent letting pressures from stigma stop you from doing so. If its insurance or cost related or shortages or any other consequence of our half assed healthcare system, I hope you can get it resolved expeditiously 🙏
10
u/Burrito-Mage 8d ago
Definitely an issue with getting set up with US insurance but I’m also allergic to methamphetamine. It was the main reason I was just prescribed iced coffee as a kid
2
2
2
u/FireFaithe 7d ago
Same, and I AM medicated (and can function. ... I think- But recently, I've been wondering if my body is adjusting to the medicine I take...).
Although I do– wait... no, I haven't been writing recently; I've been working on a frig ton of docs and random projects on my computer instead.... I really don't do things I enjoy.... ＿|￣|○
But to our defense, time also interferes with this. There's just too much to do.... I'm trying to watch multiple anime while I eat, and I'm still not done with a single one that I (re)started this year....
2
u/cookievomiter 7d ago
It’s like that time I never did secret government missions and now mental health is destroyed and the VA therapist doesn’t understand why I can’t just cope
2
u/Lumpy_Strawberry_154 7d ago
My only saving grace is my OCD. I'll literally make plans, research, ruminate on a new interest or hobby for weeks. Then when it comes time for action... I convince myself this is a waste of time and I'm not going to enjoy it. Move on to something else.
When I actually stop procrastinating and do something, I'll do it for hours at a time. Twelve hour sessions of whatever random hobby has my interest at the moment.
1
u/AdeleMundy 6d ago
Is this OCD? I thought this was a product of my Autism since I am the exact same.
2
2
2
u/nairoosha 6d ago
I been on mythe aka concerta for 3 years the lowest dosage, and now It isnt working for me as it used to, so that’s literally my life, beside I got bipolar so maybe I’m on the depressive episode but I take mood stabilizer but conclusion, I feel too harsh on myself, barely can hold my career together, I barely get up for self-care, and that’s too draining so I sleep too much to compensate, I just been feeling sad that I have got adhd, ruminating on what if I never had, but then who knows maybe it was meant to be there for a reason. I wish wellness for us all🥹
2
u/Bad-Wolf79 6d ago
What do i do... If I have and use medication... Yet still have these same damn issues... On or off them. Perhaps the depression? Or the chronic pain? Oh my oh my... Fuck I've lost the plot idk man I'm tired and brain cells where lost to the multiple false fire alarms during sorta kinda regular sleep hours... Cus fuck if I have a sleep schedule. Somewhere in the 3rd shifting night owl and constant anxiety induced brain never shut uppy hours.
2
u/Relative_Passion5102 6d ago
Yep, it is. Can't do shit. Don't even wanna live almost. How am I to survive if I can't even do basic shit or withstand criticism and work conditions (who are toxic a lot of the time to boot)? Plus I seem to be really resistant to drugs despite not having consumed much at all in my life (probably tied to extreme ego/control/cptsd) so yay
2
2
u/LuvinLifePuraVida 5d ago
wants to learn how to play guitar. Buys guitar - hangs guitar on wall and never learns to play it.
2
2
u/Equivalent-Income845 3d ago
I made my hobby into my career (costumes). Not always the best option for people, but it really forced me to give it my all. I have also learned to crochet recently. It's good because it keeps my hands busy and I can watch TV while doing it or while on the bus. I'm unmedicated. It's possible to have hobbies ♥️ the problem is finishing projects you've planned/started lol
1
1
235
u/DementedCusTurd 8d ago
Tried to explain this to my therapist when he asked me about my hobbies. He looked at me like I was insane and changed the topic.