r/ArtistLounge • u/lerna_waters • 2h ago
Career [Discussion] I don't feel like I made a mistake choosing art, but I definitely feel like I need to do something else...
NOT trying to be a downer! Just looking for any insight or advice!
I, 30 F in mid-south America, graduated from my BFA program in 2016. And I... haven't done very much since then.
Mostly just worked in restaurants. A few odd jobs as a Production Assistant. That kind of work.
A few years ago I started working on a graphic novel, mostly just to pass the time because I felt very strongly that there was nothing else I could do with my art. But, after a few years of production, that all fell through. (I was able to sign a contract for my GN with a publisher, but they weren't happy with my drawing speed so I was let go.) I try to stay positive about it though. I still have the art that I finished, over 80 pages of line art, which can at least go into my portfolio to show that I haven't been doing nothing in all the years since I've graduated. Even though I didn't take the BFA -> mark/eting agency route like my classmates did. I suppose if I had, I would be making good money in an agency by now. But I didn't take any of those jobs even though I got a few offers right out of school because I told myself that working in market/ing would be "settling".
For all these years, I'd held on to the idea that I would just "work on my portfolio some more" until I could "break in" to the animation industry. But I've given up on that idea lately, with everything that's happened there. So now I'm asking myself if it's time to go back to school for something else, anything else that I might find fulfilling, instead of continuing on just getting by with odd jobs...
I just feel completely unqualified for everything I want to do. I decided to try getting into publishing instead (doing volunteer editing for a magazine and taking courses for an Editing certificate at the moment) but getting an entry level job in publishing feels impossible when the few that I apply for keep going to candidates with MA's in english or publishing, which feels unnecessary in my opinion.
The kicker in all this for me is that I've been drawing a lot the last few years, my portfolio is much better than it was back in 2016, and I feel like I'd have a much better chance at breaking into animation now if I tried. But now the animation industry is in shambles, so it feels truly pointless to keep holding onto hope for myself.
And now I'm finding myself looking at Bachelors programs again, trying to pick between pursuing a degree in Civil Engineering or an MS in Mental Health Counseling, and trying to figure out which state I should move to now so I can get in-state tuition.
Anyway, I guess I'm just writing this to ask if anyone else in this group has ever found themselves at 30 with nothing else to do, and what they did about it.