r/CPTSDFightMode • u/Electronic_Round_540 • 14d ago

DAE? (Does Anyone Else?) Is anger the only thing some people feel here?

I'm just a ball of anger and stress and if I'm not feeling that... it's complete anhedonia and numbness. I hold onto anger bc it's better than not feeling anything in my eyes. Wondering if anyone else is like this.

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u/ARumpusOfWildThings 14d ago

I’ve felt nothing but anger and sadness (sometimes it alternates, sometimes it’s both) since at least 2014.

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u/twinkletoeswwr 13d ago

Sorry friend 🙁

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u/nigemushi 13d ago

i'm not constantly angry but very quick to anger. 0-100 very quickly. It's good when it's necessary, like the time I was on a bus and there was an older man bothering a young woman- my anger made me move before I could think. It's not good when someone makes a minor mistake at work and I want to throttle them (lol). Or when a software crashes and I'm swearing for a good two minutes. 

It's normal and honestly healthy. Just means your needs aren't being met (which is very common in todays world). You have to find a way to set your boundaries. The answer comes to you eventually.

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u/LOAinAZ 13d ago

Along with bitterness and frustration and regret and...

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u/Night_Owl646464 13d ago

Pain of course

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u/mkdizzzle 10d ago edited 10d ago

So fucking random of me but maybe it’ll help someone seeing this. I was a lot more angry all the time when I ate processed foods/lots of sugar especially processed/ate irregularly like not every three hours and used nicotine. When I quit those and was only using weed it was still bad. Once I quit all of that my anger, paranoia, and anxiety went wayyyy down. I don’t feel as assaulted by my own head anymore. Also a stupid little walk actually makes an insane difference. As well as getting 8-10 hrs of sleep and no caffeine/any substances at all no vitamins, ashwaganda, mct oil, Maca,even allergy pills like antihistamines nothing. It all gave me some weird mental symptoms. Found out iron pills, vitamin d, magnesium they can all have negative mental side effects. I was going crazyyyy. I only have herbal teas, decaffeinated green tea, and chamomile. I still have a lot of improvement but if I miss one of these things I become unmanageable.

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u/nothingsandeverthing 13d ago

Yeah anger pain sadness dread and intense happiness... That's all the emotions I have.. I don't know what this thing is called but would like to know more

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u/Querencia24 7d ago

For years, all I felt was anger and pain. Anytime I felt pain it would trigger the rage, but mainly I was just angry all the time, and I couldn’t identify my own emotions, other than that, or generally anyone else’s.

It got so bad that my therapist basically used flashcards with me to help identify my emotions.

I’ve gotten better at identifying my emotions (with a ton of therapy) and that has helped diminish the rage a bit, but it still comes out when I’m hurt or rejected or sometimes just when I’m stressed.