lost my sweet baby today

[u/fruitcloud]

Haven’t slept nor fully accepted the reality of my baby boy, Mac leaving this world today. He was my very first cat, had him since his birth & lost him way too soon. Just a couple days ago he started acting different, not eating/drinking, hiding, then last night breathing abnormally. Took him to the emergency vet at midnight, he was immediately diagnosed with heart failure & fluid build up around his lungs. Can’t get over that I could not help him more, I feel guilty that I didn’t have enough money for all the tests, treatments/surgeries & putting him to sleep so young. He was only 4 years old with a birthday coming up in April & a baby due the same month. Never expected him to leave so soon & always imagined him an old man with a long 20+ yr life, growing alongside my baby. All I could say to him in the end was “I’m so sorry & I love you so much” over & over again. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for this, I just wish he knew how much I will always love & cherish him.

[u/TsukiandKuro]

I’m so sorry for your loss. Mac had such a great life from the pictures you have shown and I know he knew how much you cared for him.

I lost my void boy very suddenly and was also not prepared for him to go. He was about to be 7. It’s so heartbreaking and it doesn’t feel real nor fair ☹️ just know you did the best you could do. Sometimes life is just truly unfair. Grief is not a linear process, but time will eventually help you manage it. Now is not that time and it’s okay to feel everything and nothing all at once.

I wish you the best in your journey of grief and I hope you can forgive yourself because you did nothing wrong ❤️