lost my sweet baby today

[u/fruitcloud]

Haven’t slept nor fully accepted the reality of my baby boy, Mac leaving this world today. He was my very first cat, had him since his birth & lost him way too soon. Just a couple days ago he started acting different, not eating/drinking, hiding, then last night breathing abnormally. Took him to the emergency vet at midnight, he was immediately diagnosed with heart failure & fluid build up around his lungs. Can’t get over that I could not help him more, I feel guilty that I didn’t have enough money for all the tests, treatments/surgeries & putting him to sleep so young. He was only 4 years old with a birthday coming up in April & a baby due the same month. Never expected him to leave so soon & always imagined him an old man with a long 20+ yr life, growing alongside my baby. All I could say to him in the end was “I’m so sorry & I love you so much” over & over again. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for this, I just wish he knew how much I will always love & cherish him.

[u/FarookWu]

So sorry you lost your little pal so soon. He looks like he was a great cat, and I love the little patches of white. Picture #14 of him as baby really did it for me, reminds me so much of my void girrrl. You did what you could, and gave him love. I've been in the same circumstances too many times, and it always makes you question yourself, and "how hard you tried". The others are right, think of the happy times, knowing that the empty spot will still bring tears, for years. Thanks for sharing Mac with us, may he romp in heaven forever.