lost my sweet baby today

[u/fruitcloud]

Haven’t slept nor fully accepted the reality of my baby boy, Mac leaving this world today. He was my very first cat, had him since his birth & lost him way too soon. Just a couple days ago he started acting different, not eating/drinking, hiding, then last night breathing abnormally. Took him to the emergency vet at midnight, he was immediately diagnosed with heart failure & fluid build up around his lungs. Can’t get over that I could not help him more, I feel guilty that I didn’t have enough money for all the tests, treatments/surgeries & putting him to sleep so young. He was only 4 years old with a birthday coming up in April & a baby due the same month. Never expected him to leave so soon & always imagined him an old man with a long 20+ yr life, growing alongside my baby. All I could say to him in the end was “I’m so sorry & I love you so much” over & over again. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for this, I just wish he knew how much I will always love & cherish him.

[u/kitxg]

Don‘t blame yourself. Cats are very good at hiding that there‘s something wrong, especially when it comes to heart issues. Even vets often can’t diagnose it. Maybe the tests would have helped, maybe not. I had a cat diagnosed with cancer and my parents helped me financially. We did all the tests and surgeries but in the end my cat didn’t get much time anyway. From looking at the photos I can tell that he knew he was loved. Sometimes our loved ones have to go too soon and we can’t do anything about it. Cherish the time you had with him and take all the time you need to grief but don’t blame yourself. ❤️