r/blackcats • u/fruitcloud • Jan 17 '25
Mourning lost my sweet baby today
Haven’t slept nor fully accepted the reality of my baby boy, Mac leaving this world today. He was my very first cat, had him since his birth & lost him way too soon. Just a couple days ago he started acting different, not eating/drinking, hiding, then last night breathing abnormally. Took him to the emergency vet at midnight, he was immediately diagnosed with heart failure & fluid build up around his lungs. Can’t get over that I could not help him more, I feel guilty that I didn’t have enough money for all the tests, treatments/surgeries & putting him to sleep so young. He was only 4 years old with a birthday coming up in April & a baby due the same month. Never expected him to leave so soon & always imagined him an old man with a long 20+ yr life, growing alongside my baby. All I could say to him in the end was “I’m so sorry & I love you so much” over & over again. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for this, I just wish he knew how much I will always love & cherish him.
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u/thekerbeus_ Jan 18 '25
hello! I don’t know if that’ll be comforting to you and I’m sorry in advance if it doesn’t… I lost my cat recently too, she was only four years older than your sweet little boy and she had a liver failure, the vets said that it might be due to a genetic disorder that her liver wasn’t “perfect”
what I’m trying to say it’s that sometimes we just don’t have how to know if our cats are going to get sick and die in the future, and >it’s not our fault<, I know it’s hard, I cry every day since her death and kinda blame myself, even though I know it’s not
and believe in me, all the love you gave him, all the food, all the pets, all the fun you two had together while he was still alive it’s going to be carried with him forever and there’s nothing that’ll change it, he knows you loved him dearly and you know it too
I hope you find peace at your heart and have in mind that it wasn’t your fault that your cat died and you did everything you could to save him and make him the happiest cat ever
(english is not my first language, sorry if my text has any errors)