lost my sweet baby today

[u/fruitcloud]

Haven’t slept nor fully accepted the reality of my baby boy, Mac leaving this world today. He was my very first cat, had him since his birth & lost him way too soon. Just a couple days ago he started acting different, not eating/drinking, hiding, then last night breathing abnormally. Took him to the emergency vet at midnight, he was immediately diagnosed with heart failure & fluid build up around his lungs. Can’t get over that I could not help him more, I feel guilty that I didn’t have enough money for all the tests, treatments/surgeries & putting him to sleep so young. He was only 4 years old with a birthday coming up in April & a baby due the same month. Never expected him to leave so soon & always imagined him an old man with a long 20+ yr life, growing alongside my baby. All I could say to him in the end was “I’m so sorry & I love you so much” over & over again. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for this, I just wish he knew how much I will always love & cherish him.

[u/Conscious_Scallion44]

The most sincere condolences for your pain and for your loss. Though there is nothing that you can put upon yourself, Kay? Look at that happy man, the love shines bright in his eyes and that IS directed at you. You gave your boy the sweetest take on this mortal plane and you will be bonded forever. Take it easy and take it slow as I understand this kind of loss as well. Too soon they go sometimes but there is not much in your control to change that. Let the love that you shared guide you in time to another magical majestic feline beast who just gives you the look, you know what look I'm talking about, then experience another form of love from these amazing creatures. Take care dear fellow cat parent, there are people to reach out to if you need and there is never a wrong moment to express your grief for your beloved. Chin up and eyes on the sun for you will always have your sweet boy in your heart and with you in spirit.