lost my sweet baby today

[u/fruitcloud]

Haven’t slept nor fully accepted the reality of my baby boy, Mac leaving this world today. He was my very first cat, had him since his birth & lost him way too soon. Just a couple days ago he started acting different, not eating/drinking, hiding, then last night breathing abnormally. Took him to the emergency vet at midnight, he was immediately diagnosed with heart failure & fluid build up around his lungs. Can’t get over that I could not help him more, I feel guilty that I didn’t have enough money for all the tests, treatments/surgeries & putting him to sleep so young. He was only 4 years old with a birthday coming up in April & a baby due the same month. Never expected him to leave so soon & always imagined him an old man with a long 20+ yr life, growing alongside my baby. All I could say to him in the end was “I’m so sorry & I love you so much” over & over again. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself for this, I just wish he knew how much I will always love & cherish him.

[u/Beeboop007]

I’m so sorry. I lost my Siamese Prince Loki when he was 3. It seems so unfair. It hurts and I miss him daily so I understand your loss. I’m sending you big hugs, love, and prayers of comfort. ❤️. You did good. Don’t feel bad. You loved him, fed him, and cared for him and that’s all that matters. Maybe he just wanted to experience a brief life here anyway and you gave him a beautiful experience. Rest in love, light, and peace precious.