r/books • u/[deleted] • Aug 21 '16
One of the most powerful descriptions of suicide I've ever read. David Foster Wallace - Infinite Jest
"The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling."
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u/wavinsnail Aug 21 '16
It's so strange, I went to the school DFW was a professor at. Several of my professors knew him personally when he was writing Infinite Jest. I've never been into post modernism, but it was so odd walking the same halls as a man who was considered a great mind. That I was sitting in a class talking about him with a professor who knew him personally and well.