r/depression • u/s0mewhereInClass • 20h ago

Tired of pretending I’m fine

I’ve been holding it together for a while or at least trying to. On the outside I say I’m fine, smile when I’m supposed to, do what I need to, but inside I just feel tired. Not the kind of tired sleep fixes, just worn down. I don’t really talk about it with anyone and most people wouldn’t even guess. I guess I’m just tired of acting like everything’s okay when it’s not. Felt like I needed to say that somewhere

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u/lovely-tots 20h ago

I’m sorry you are hurting

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u/Apprehensive_Toe6736 20h ago

Do you feel like you're not being yourself? I'm not talking about the depressed part of you specifically I mean in general, a lot of us are just different and we constantly put a mask to fit in but it's mentally draining

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u/s0mewhereInClass 18h ago

Yeah… I think you nailed it. I’ve been stuck in this loop of putting on a face just to get through the day, and I don’t even know if I feel like me anymore. It’s draining in ways I didn’t expect. Thank you for saying that it made me feel a little less alone.

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u/Apprehensive_Toe6736 8h ago

It's hard but you need to find people in your life that you can be yourself with, I haven't found anyone but I assume it's the answer

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u/CJones665A 19h ago

Better to suffer than live in drudgery.