r/exjw • u/ILeaveMarks • 21h ago

Venting You get a call

You get a call, see it's one of your parents. You think, who's dying or in the hospital.

You let it go to voice mail. It's an uncle dying. You then start thinking about if you're going to the funeral. All the things you'll have to deal with there. The fake interest in your life. The love bombing. People coming up to you feeling like the have a chance/permission to talk to you.

It's exhausting and anxiety inducing. I hate this cult. I hate my parents put their "dedication" over me. Why can't they see it's all bullshit. Why can't they have unconditional love for me.

Thank you for reading and letting me put this out there.

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u/AdventurousBox3693 21h ago

Try keep in mind that they have been brainwashed and in their minds loving "jehovah" over you is what they're supposed to do. I'm sorry I know that doesn't cut it and it's a fucking bullshit cult but at least it ends with you, you won't pass it on to any kids you may have now or in the future, that's what gives me hope, my son will NEVER feel the way or go thru the things I did and I am so proud of that, I see myself as the cycle breaker of my lineage not just in this aspect but in many others, and to think I was "the black sheep" for going against my parents and their beliefs lol we are actually the fucking goats

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u/goddess_dix Independent Thinker 💖 40+ Years Free 21h ago

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u/Appoffiatura Gay POMO decanonizing the bible 19h ago

I'm dreading that exact call anytime now. Too many old family members. It's going to be a series of unhealthy funerals.