I (38f 20yrs chronic, 3 months free) went out for a few drinks last night, walked home in a light spring rain and when I got home I was just dying to smoke one with my husband out on our anarondak chairs and have a heart to heart like we used to before we quit. I still have the stash in the basement and we were so, so close to caving. Just one will be fine right? It’s a Saturday night and I’m an adult. It’s all good… then I thought about how hard the first few days were, how I’ve thought I could keep to the weekend before and never succeeded, how I’d have to come on this Reddit and say I was back at day 1 (no shame in that) but I’d rather wake up today continuing my clean streak instead of starting over….or struggling to start over…

So glad I didn’t do it. I. Just. Didn’t. Do. It. 🖤stay strong out there Peeps.

Just wanted to share, I’m very proud of my past-self. If you’re struggling just know the grass is SO much greener on the other side (pardon the pun)

When ur brain tells u, u can moderate u cannot. My brain is playing tricks on me that I can occasionally use weed and it’s not true. I’m like 10 days into a relapse and I’m using more than ever and I feel so crappy. Now I have to go cold turkey again. I have my resources, a sober community and I can do this. Just remember this if ur thinking about it.

Well actually it’s day 103 today.

Didn’t even realise about day 100 till I randomly checked my quit weed app today - which says a lot in its own right.

Humble brag as I can’t brag to anyone IRL. I’m proud of what I’ve achieved and how strong I was in all the times I wanted to throw the towel in.

Life is so much better with a clear head.

Anyone reading wanting to cave, don’t do it. Do it for me, do it for you. Just make it to the next hour, or till the end of the day. It gets easier I promise.

Stay strong friends, this sub is incredible.

I’m so proud of myself after literally trying to quit thousands of times and not getting past day 3 ❤️

I know there are likely outliers, but I’m curious if many of us are getting to this point of realization at around the same age.

I’m 25 and started smoking senior year of Hs and weed has been around in some way daily since. Last time I quit for a month was 4 years ago and the moment I took a hit I rationalized going balls deep again.

This time i’m 3 weeks in, quit to get better REM sleep so I wouldn’t be overthinking some of the most mundane easy-to-rationalize shit.

I threw out my grinder and storage bottle last night and didn’t feel a thing. Feeling in control and a stronger mental is so worth the pain of no sleep and borderline panic attack anxiety for the first few weeks.

I work in the healthcare space and will be applying to grad school which will require me to rotate in hospitals and work with patients. I’ll know where I’ll be going almost exactly 1 year from now and I know that schools will ask to submit a urine sample, however I do not know exact policies around weed, it could be based on state cannabis laws, though I’d rather not take the chance since I have been working towards this my whole adolescent/adult life.

I know that weed is not worth it, and it would be foolish to jeopardize grad school for it. But I find it to be an integral part of my personality.

I just need to grow up and drop it for a year right? I started smoking in high school at 16 and have pretty consistent smoke at least 60-70% of these days since. I am now 24. So I want to give myself a year to detox my urine and also have peace of mind that nothing will come back.

If you stopped for a similar situation, for career purposes, what were the mental gymnastics you played to convince yourself that you can stop.

41 and smoked since I was 15, I love weed, it’s my best friend and I love how I feel when high, everything is more tolerable and deep. I’ve been a very productive stoner in life, but I worry how can I continue, will I be 60 and still puffing away. I worry for my lungs mostly, that’s the only reason I need to stop or at least stop having it be an everyday thing. It’s so hard to imagine yourself away from something that is such a part of who you are. I feel sad thinking about it, but I feel sad thinking I’m risking my health for weed. Anyway, here I am, good to know I’m not alone.

I’ve realized that I was giving Mary Jane too much credit. Every time I would try and quit I would fantasize about her like she was the only one that mattered. I would feel as though I had lost something or even somebody. An empty feeling that brought a ton of emotion. I could pick a quit day and as normal I would get up and go to work (not baked) and I would get this overwhelming anxiety. At that point nothing had changed (I’m a night smoker). I hadn’t even attempted quitting yet. I just woke up and went to work like I always do. Yet I built this up in my head that today I’d lose her. Today is the day I’d lose Mary Jane.

It made me realize that like any relationship, how do I move on if I can’t even consider being without Mary Jane. I can’t. And you can’t.

After this realization it’s made quitting easier. It made me realize that I’m creating some of the withdrawal symptoms by fantasizing about her. The anxiety, frustration, the overwhelming feelings, those all come from me. And if I continue to think I don’t want to live without her, I should expect those feelings to continue on.

I’m not saying this mindset is easy. It’s taken over 20 years of daily use and many attempts to quit to get here. I just wish I had realized earlier the role I play in this relationship. That’s all. I wish I could have seen how much power I was giving Mary Jane.

Hope this helps others like it did me. Best of luck y’all. You got this!

I'll start: I would have a university degree today.

I used to be in here daily.. and I just want to drop in and say. You can do it.. check my page for old posts and message me if needed. I’m 2 days away from being 3 years off nic and weed.. you can do it🩵

I've been a long time lurker here! I took the plunge to stop weed after my ex broke up with me. The first month was actually pretty easy because it felt like something clicked in my brain i guess, knew i needed to sort my life out after smoking for 6 years and losing myself to this drug.

However, these last 7 days I have essentially been in a state of depression. I've got counselling in a couple of days in an attempt to figure out all the stuff I used weed to medicate from, but this is genuinely the lowest I have felt in about 8-9 years, and I'm kind of wondering if it's normal at this stage or whatever you'd call it?

Any info would be helpful, I exercise 6 days a week nowadays after quitting and go on walks twice a week, but I don't really know what else to do whilst trying to stop honestly. I don't really crave it as much as I thought I would which is nice, but when my mood is this low, I would be lying if I said I didn't have intrusive thoughts to smoke so that I don't have to think about my stupid mistakes, and the depressing relationship stuff I've been through for the last 2 years.

Thanks in advance and thank you for having such a great community!

I hit 60 days yesterday from 4.5 year or mostly daily smoking/vaping and I feel like my motivation is at an all time low. I just don’t want to do anything. I’m doing my best to stay busy with my hobbies (running, biking, gaming) but very few things are keeping my interest for long. The thought of starting another work week tomorrow sounds absolutely exhausting. I quit because I felt my headspace was very cloudy and I had low motivation, and I guess my head more clear now but the motivation definitely got worse. Still going strong with no plans on smoking but it definitely doesn’t get easier for everyone. Just venting. Stay strong out there.

I’m a few weeks sober for the first time in a few years. I’ve had other “quits” before that lasted days or a few weeks also but not in a while. I had a euphoric and extremely productive first week sober, and since then I’ve unfortunately looked around and realized I’m just as anxious now if not more, the same level of depressed, my appetite came back and I’m now eating like I have the munchies again, and worst of all I’m procrastinating and not doing chores just as badly as when I was using daily. I was so excited that first week to be turning a new leaf and now here I am still unable to do my laundry or make dinner.

When I’ve “quit” in the past I reached this realization and relapsed, and that’s very tempting again because I am wondering what’s the point of quitting. But the darnedest thing happened, I did relapse a few days ago, hated every second of it and felt like it made me sick so I threw it all away again and for the first time in many many years I have absolutely no cravings or desire at all to be high. So where do I go now?

I quit two years ago for a period of 10 months. I remember it being really hard but exercise and therapy got me through it. Within a couple of weeks i got my social life back and even got a girlfriend. The relationship ended quite badly and I went back to weed to ease the heartbreak. Since then I have not stopped and went back to my old ways. I moved back home to go to uni and my sister became my stoned buddy. I wanted to quit but knew with her smoking still I did not have the self control to quit again. I gave up but my grades and life have been falling apart. She finally said we should quit. I went back to therapy and got my meds refilled. I quit before going on a week long trip with a friend. Cravings was alright but now that im back home I have been getting cravings again. Im currently 7 days sober and I do feel i can make it this time. I didn’t realise how much i missed being able to study (or do anything else) at anytime cause i don’t have to wait till I get off my high. Wish me luck!

I have seen a lot of people here who relapsed and because it reset their day count to zero they felt really discouraged and lost all motivation. I understand counting days can be very effective in the beginning, say first 60 days or so. But at some point I also feel like it could backfire if you just relapse one single time. Maybe at some point counting like the total number of days / days relapsed would be more productive. For example: 145 days / 3 days relapsed. Any thoughts?

I'm 45 days free of all thc products and I'm feeling great about it mentally and physically. My Quit Weed app says I'm completely thc free so I used one of the at home test kits from the dollar store and it showed a positive result. I'm pretty disappointed.

How long before I'm really 100% thc free?

Been lurking for a while, decided today will be the day I throw everything out and give quitting a real try.

Gonna check in here every so often.

Most worried about being bored at night.

Why I want to quit smoking

• [ ] Never get good sleep always tired
• [ ] Eat so many snacks defeats the purpose of hard working out and eating healthy
• [ ] Takes away my freedom
• [ ] Takes away from my hobbies
• [ ] Makes me okay with being bored instead of taking action to fix it
• [ ] Makes me less confident when sober
• [ ] Makes me spend less time with my family
• [ ] Doesn’t align with my true values
• [ ] Makes me more anxious socially
• [ ] Makes me unmotivated
• [ ] Use it as an escape

Hi fellow leavers,

I hope every one is doing well - and if you arent, I hope it gets better for you real soon.

I am currently on day 11. I smoked weed and tobacco everyday for the last 10 years, following 3 big trauma's in a row at 18. Im 30 now and enough is enough. I have tried to quit many times before, last time I caved on day 11 and slipped back into every day use, not happening this time. 11 days ago I decided skrew it and threw out my grinder, tobbacco, skins, everything.

Most of my symptoms have gone or greatly lessened since day 1. I am feeling really sleepy and my digestion is a bit iffy but apart from that I am doing good, I do get urges and cravings but if I ride it out for an hour I find they dissapate. I dont doubt I have hard time ahead as I have friends that smoke but the idea of the pride I would feel in saying no is massively encouraging.

I started a new job in a doggy daycare which is so much better suited to me than other hospitality jobs. I find being happy with where I am at is helping a lot with loving myself enough to stay away from what aids me- weed.

I just wanted to say im so thankful for this sub and everyone here, the real and raw stories are so helpful to read aswell as inspirational.

Throwing away my things felt so scary, what if I really needed a cigerette or what if I wanted to smoke on a special occasion or if id gotten some really bad news?! Despite the fear, I did it anyway.

Being in a new job and being sober still feels new and scary and sometimes I miss my security blanket. But thats the thing when you smoke weed, its no ordinary soft and comforting blanket (at first it is) but as time goes on the blanket becomes heavier, as if its made of stone and we become completely stuck.. Who wants a safety blanket that stops you standing up? That stops you living??

Not me, not anymore.

Im proud of each of you, thankyou for being here, thankyou for your honesty, thankyou for being real and raw. Be kind to yourself and remember, you deserve a life free from the shackles of addiction, no matter who you are or what you've been through, tomorrow is a new day.

Life is for living.

I feel very isolated and sad. I use weed to plant me in the moment and help manage my anxiety and ADHD. It’s the only thing that relieves pressure and boredom. It’s confusing when something that is helpful becomes out of control. I have no appetite or motivation (something MJ helps with) and feel low. Hanging in there but not feeling awesome.

Hey everyone, I've been lurking for the last month and a half as I've been "trying to quit" my "cannabis addiction" (it's really a substance use disorder)

I've been doing the inner work to recognize and heal from the factors that caused me smoke cannabis as a crutch to cope in the first place and terminating my relationship with cannabis is part of my healing journey and I'm ready for it (I'm working on adding a mental health professional to my new support system!).

Today is the day that it sticks. I'm done with the flip flopping. Today is day 1 (it's 5am)

I've been gifted an opportunity that will change my life completely in 90 days.

I've spent years building my business infrastructure while in addiction; and it has been one of the biggest barriers to me actually launching my business.

If I can be sober and focus on launching my business then I can quit my day job and pivot industries

But this window of opportunity for me will likely never happen again in my lifetime; if I fumble this I will regret this.

But I won't fail this time. I'm ready. I smoked my last pre-roll 1 hour ago, and I'll be removing any associated items from my life by the end of today.

I've got the Quit Weed app, I've already kicked nic before so I'm prepped to battle withdrawals, I've got my target, I've got the fitness routine (diet will get dialed in when the financials get dialed in)...I've just gotta channel the focus and willpower.

For the love of God I've gotta lock in and clock in so I don't check out. I know it it's going to suck, and it's going to be a lot of work (and then there's actually juggling my day job and launching my business!) but damnit I'm learning to love myself and I deserve to take a chance on me!

There are key dates coming up that are important for me: May 18th, 19th & 20th (Networking Event and Hard Launch, and July 6th (End of Launch Period). I'm going to come back and give 6 and 12 week "Life After Weed" updates and see where I'm at...

I'm gonna print this out and hang it up in my office for motivation

I got this! You got this! We got this! (Woo!)

Song for Day 1: Rouge VHS, Tima - What Else [Kareful Remix]

I've been smoking for over 10 years, I'm almost 6months sober, sometimes anxiety it's so bad my body decide to go into freeze mode and I have derealization episodes that goes away when i feel calmer, but sometimes when I'm in public and I get too anxious I just kinda dissociate, how much does dissocation last for you after quitting?