eg: If you had a friend kill themselves with you in the room and they’ve asked you not to intervene?

I want to work around dead people.

Also I've been watching documentaries on autopsies and I think that's interesting, I like finding out what killed people.

Whenever I look up on job sites or Google there's nothing.

I started to think about this deeply. Why should I exist if others are like me? For example, I am an avid car enthusiast, but there are others like me. I am not the only American that knows about Skoda, Peugeot, and Citroen (for Europeans reading this: it’s a big deal because those brands don’t sell cars in the US). I am not the only lover of hip hop music. I am not the only person that likes Mediterranean food. I am not the only one who likes working out. I am not the only one that has refused to wear piercings. I am not the only person who is courteous to everyone. If there are others like me, why should I even be living? I have pondered about this question because my motivation, growing up, was to maintain my illusion of my individuality. I played a sport that was not popular among my family and relatives. I am the only car enthusiast among my neighborhood and relatives. I tried to find music that my friends and family had never listened to. This illusion allowed me to challenge myself and distinguish myself from my cousins. However, as a university student, I have started to question my existence as an individual. How do you all deal with this feeling?

BTW: I am not suicidal. I will only die when my heart gives out. I have made it rule to never engage in self-harm.

Might not be particularly morbid, but was watching IT (the new one) with my nephew and we just watched the part where Henry (the bully) kills his dad with the switchblade into the neck/jugular, and I wondered, does a switchblade or springboard even have enough tension to burst through the skin enough to lacerate beyond the first layer of skin? Inquiring minds wander.

If 2 unrelated kids of the opposite sex were raised together since birth thinking they were siblings but when they grow up they find out they’re not related would they get sexual feelings for each other or still have that sibling level relationship?