I left healthcare for business.
I came from healthcare working for cancer patients. I used to care so much about people. After engaging with people in the business field, I'm learning that the people there don't give a crap about others. People with egos and an inflated sense of self-worth are among the worst people to deal with - but these ones are harder to deal with than doctors, because at least doctors actually have skills behind their (some) douchey attitudes and can (sometimes) pretend to care enough to not harm or traumatize the patient - douchey dudes (and gals) in business have no real substance to justify it (just an inflated ego because of the car they drive and the clothes they wear - that's it). It's hard for me to care about these people - because they literally do - not - care - about - people (beyond themselves).
Coming from a highly empathetic environment to the corporate environment is feeling like a walk in the wrong direction. I hope it becomes worth it, b'cus I'm definitely not there for the people - the interpersonal dynamics are toxic.
Stepping outside of healthcare, where I genuinely cared about all people, I now realize how naive I was. I had previously created a "bubble" of unicorns and rainbows, and welcomed my patients into my inner world (mind & heart) as a place for their healing to take place. Now that I work with a huge population of people outside of the hospital walls, I see who my patients (likely) really were. No wonder I burned out so fast - I cared too much. There's a fine balance of caring. In healthcare, you care about others and don't care what others think about you. In business, you don't want to care, and yet are forced to pretend, because if you don't - you will not get anywhere
However, I never before realized what a**holes my patients could have actually been outside of the hospital - I never knew it - I just cared deeply and quite authentically about them, naively - an outsider might see it as I kissed their asses before I wiped their ass, but, no, I genuinely cared. It's really hard for me to see that my ability to care so much has now come to be a liability to me in my new line of work (I have to deny my emotions, stonewall them, because emotions are not tolerated). And further, I don't want to let my gaurd down and befriend an a**hole - that's how people get roped into commiting fraud. I hope they aren't all bad - but the majority of them are a lot worse than healthcare workers. I used to despise healthcare workers who were in the field for money - but it turns out that these kind of people who value money over people and compassionate relationships are just the majority of the american population. They can't all work in business - not enough positions!
Guys and gals - healthcare might not be business, but - it still is customer service. Please, care about your patients - if not for them, for your own sanity, but don't care too much, because you could burn out. I miss being in my prior inner world, where I actually could care without it being a liability to myself. I wish I had balanced my empathy better, and never burnt out, because the alternative of business... well, the business world is a hostile place in its own way. Business colleages are cold, and business clients are cold. Healthcare colleages can at least pretend to be warm, and clients can be weak, so it's just naturally easy to have compassion for them. I miss healthcare :( Just wanted y'all to know that what you've got is the real deal - don't blow it up, like I did.
It's a MUCH better life experience to care for others when you don't know what they are all about (this is more attainable in healthcare - with patients and healthcare colleages - you're likely to end up better-off by caring). It's harder to care about people when you know all about and disagree with what they are all about (this seems to be the default in business). So care, fellow nurses - care away, because your life experience will be better - and you are in the prime environment to care - caring is welcomed and you will be rewarded for caring. In business (the alternative) - if you care, you become a liability to yourself because caring is not welcomed. My life experience is just - grey - no more unicorns and rainbows.
I realize that my post is just a rollercoaster of emotions - but hey - I warned readers that this was a rant.