This sounds like me to a T. If there is something I TRULY want to work on, I will be laser focused, but otherwise my brain is all over the place. No wonder I always have 8 instances of chrome open at a time with 40 tabs each. When I go back through them I just think to myself, how the fuck did I get from landscaping to the best southern bbq rib rub.
Maybe I should go see a doctor and get something for this. I always just feel like I'll be dismissed rather than have the doctor actually consider I may actually have ADHD.
I couldn't focus worth a shit in university unless it was a subject I cared about. I leave work until the last minute even though I know better than that by now (I'm 35 now). And I can't sit down and read a book because 10 pages in I realize I haven't been paying attention to the book because my mind is elsewhere but my eyes just kept on going.
The cool thing about it though is that you know a lot of random things that other people don't. People with ADHD have very unique personalities because they are made up of a lot of interests.
The only question though is how much time we were interested in a subject before we moved on to something else, so sometimes our knowledge on something can be superficial, but we're usually knowledgeable or informed on most things.
This is exactly me. I can recall random bits of information in meetings but as soon as my supervisor asks me to summarize a meeting I just got out of I just sit there with a stupid look on my face because I can never remember the specific details.
I also suck at telling stories or jokes because I get hung up on the absolute stupidest details and am constantly fumbling over my thoughts or trying to come up with the perfect word when any number of them would do.
I too feel like I just know things, how things work, the science and logic. But for fucks sake I just don't remember things that I read or watch or learn unless I repeat them constantly and for a very very long time.
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u/crwilso6 May 30 '17
My horse is amazing, performs like a fucking champion...only when he's interested in the task.
Otherwise my horse is a real ass.