I'm going to make it a point to see someone about this soon. Hopefully I can turn things around. There are some many things I feel like I've missed out on, but I always just thought I had a shit memory and I was lazy. .....not to mention the guilt for not living up to what I feel is my full potential.
So if I may ask, what do you find changed. Like, did you notice your personality changed? Did you lose any sharpness or creativity? I work in design and NEED my problem-solving and creativity, but I also do some photography work and am worried I'll lose my eye for something like that.
nah, stimulants do have some annoying side effects but losing creativity isn't one of them for me. it feels like putting on glasses for my brain when i take them. everything is clearer, crisper, makes more sense to me. without them i feel stunted, creatively—like any ideas in my head are going to get washed away in seconds by another more distracting but much less important thought. like i can "feel" an idea but can't conceptualize or articulate it whatsoever. like i WANT to create but can't focus on the most open ended low pressure creative tasks. i don't mean to take away from anyone who has suffered a loss of creativity when on meds, but i think it's not as much of a problem as it's made out to be.
i did a podcast interview about adhd once, talked a lot about my experience with meds and getting diagnosed. if you're interested in listening, PM me and i'll link you! (but if you have an attention span of about 1 minute and podcasts aren't your thing, i understand :)
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u/confusing_times_ta May 30 '17
I'm going to make it a point to see someone about this soon. Hopefully I can turn things around. There are some many things I feel like I've missed out on, but I always just thought I had a shit memory and I was lazy. .....not to mention the guilt for not living up to what I feel is my full potential.