We should start a club, where we fix all our problems and cope with stuff, and motivate each other... I have it all planned out it's gonna be great, I've even made most of a mind map detailing exactly how it should look.. I'm on Reddit right now, but after that's done I'll get to it later..
(This is a joke meant to be funny, but so painfully true and the same cycle I've been on for years.. it's almost a cosmic joke that I've/we've got the abilities and wherewithal but somehow don't follow through.. worst part is in those panicked moments we HAVE created objectively awesome stuff and that's how we've gotten by and KNOW we can do it. But it takes a crisis or deadline to sit down and finish.)
I completely understand that feeling he mentions of "I know I should do this, I know it's gonna suck if I don't do this now. But then still don't do it. I always figured that once I identified the 'inaction' it would be easy to correct, but it's weirdly not enough.
I imagine it's kind of akin to hard drug users who watch themselves making the bad choice, know it's bad but do it anyways.. except when I watch myself do it my payoff isn't even an awesome drug trip, it's just a bit of time on reddit, or YouTube, or tv, or "fapping".. don't get me wrong I love those things, but it's totally not worth the hassle later and I Know that, and yet I do it. (Even this very second I'm supposed to be working on my resume and LinkedIn, huge consequences, but here I am spending a few extra min to write this out... and for what? Lol... not lol..
Cheesus christ, reading these comments and recognizing myself in all of them makes me think that someone somewhere should seriously look in to this and make some sort of treatment plan for it.
I have gotten so damn good at pushing negative things to the back of my head and only reacting to them at the last moment that i think i'm pushing the date when i "really" start living my life as i want.... to the day i die.
And as a side note, mental health should be taken fucking seriously! It should be like fixing a broken bone. There should be no gods damned negative social stigma to it. Fuck i live in a country where i dont even know where to go to get some help! And do i live in some third world shithole some fucking backwater where there are 1 doctor for 10000000 people?
No, i live in Finland the socialist paradise.
And for the fellow Finns, don't try to deny this. It's easy to get medical help here but what about mental health?
Actually I heard mental health is a big issue in Finland, especially depression. Because aren't many people isolated plus you get the long darkness during winter.
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u/yolk_ May 30 '17
This is so me as well.