I’ve been on this sub since late last year, only sub I’m really joined on right now too but i am just now posting, wanted to know if this is passive or active suicide ideation:

I will (probably) not kill myself soon but will definitely kill myself in mid-late 2027 if I don’t accomplish a particular goal or am not on track of accomplishing it by then, it has been done only by like 100-120 people so the chances of accomplishing it are extremely low

Is this active suicidal ideation or passive?

Thank you everyone

What can I say, I'm a hundred pounds overweight, incredibly stupid, unlikeable and unlovable, I've pushed someone I cared about very much to near suicide due to something I said to them, I have zero social skills and always come across as stupid, I do nothing but rot in my home on the weekends, I am doing and will never do anything with the gift of life, I'm told I'm not a failure but I know I am, I'm just too far gone frankly. I don't deserve to be saved or loved by anyone

im going to kill myself april 10th because my friend called me the n-slur. i am a black man and he has been racits in the past but tis time it went to far.

we've always had a rough relationship but its gotten to the point where i question why she had me. shes drunk of her buttocks 7 days a week and said today i am the very reason for it so i told her id rid myself in her life if so now shes backtracking acting like she never said it but i still believe i shouldnt even be here since drunk thoughts are usually sober thoughts for her anyway. she always does this when have *these* thoughts; acts like it incovinces her the most like her life will change oh so much.

ive felt this way before and always got through it for my siblings, my friends, or even my pets but they all live so far away now and my pets have passed, i think id like to join them finally

Always stayed alive through it all cuz of the parts of life I liked, now I’ve lost a lot of my friends and I’m working a full time job, not sure how much longer I’ll be around

Everything is so difficult. Everything is so painful. Every day is filled with so much suffering. My whole world has fallen apart and I can’t do anything to fix it. I’m so exhausted of everything. I can’t enjoy anything or look forward to anything anymore. I don’t know who I am anymore. Nothing gives me relief anymore. There is nothing left for me here and I have nothing left to give.

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it seems like no matter how hard i try ill never be good enough. men only see me for my body, family needs me to be perfect 24/7, college sucks, and no one actually cares. i’m over everything. there’s no point anymore. i hate telling people how im feeling because anytime i open up it seems like it’s all little things that i couldn’t probably be upset about. but those little things add up. the name calling, the screaming, the cursing, everything. just want to stop breathing.

Last week I think I had a stroke. I got lightheaded sat down then blacked out when I came to my friends where checking on me I could t move my left arm I was trying to talk but could t make any sence. A little background I was on the 2nd hole of a golf course and earlier I had donated plasma. I also have diabetes and high blood pressure. I thought it was maybe diabetic shock but the left arm being numb and not being able to use it makes me think it’s a stroke. Regardless part of me thinks it would have been better if I just blacked out and didn’t wake up. I lost my job which I hated 2 months ago. I’m looking for work in debt living at my grandparents. I’m over 30 and all I see in my future is having to work until I die alone, what’s the point? I e recently begun looking up painless ways to end it but I don’t think I’ll go through but everyday I wonder what’s the point? Realistically I’ll probably die alone, so what is the benefit to keep going? Work to pay off the debt I owe be miserable at jobs I hate. I just feel like I have little joy as I get older.

I'm a 29M from Poland. I've recently changed jobs during a depressive episode and I moved back from Berlin to family home. I've made a terrible job switch decision and I'm on sick leave after the first month. I don't know if I can return to this job, I'm seeing a psychiatrist in a few days. I have huge resume gaps and this will be another one. I'm practically unemployable with no drivers license or a degree.

My mother makes minimum wage working with a disability (bipolar). I don't have any prospects or the future and returning from Berlin after a year was my attempt to build a normal life, which I have failed. I don't have a girlfriend or any meaningful relationships. I will be unemployed with little savings and a burden to my mother who can't afford much herself. I've been abusing alcohol most of my life and always struggled with relationships and depression.

Why would I prolong this hell? I'm suffering every awake moment, I don't get out of bed. I can't keep the job I have. My life is a nightmare. Every minute hurts.

20's F - I accidentally cut tendons in my hand while washing dishes. The first repair failed & I am in recovery from my second. A third repair would likely not be an option. Last night during an argument, he hit me in the head, threatened to "take away" my other arm, while twisting it. Later applied some of his body weight to my surgical site (my hand is in a plaster splint, leaving my palm exposed) with his fist when he was kneeling over the bed to scream in my face. and I'm terrified he damaged my repair. I worked very hard to get through school and am terrified of losing everything I worked for (my job requires my hands). He's the only man I've ever been with, and I have no one else to turn to. He's become increasingly cruel and violent since I've been injured. I never thought it would get this bad. If the repair fails again, I'm just going to end it. The anxiety and pain I'm feeling has become too much for me to bear.

it's gonna be weird that someone who's thinking about suicide will think about driving license but the thing is I just don't want to leave something incomplete for once in my life, I failed and ruined my life and stuck in this country with this family I failed to have high education to go abroad and I'm poor of course there is no way for me I'm tired of pretending to be a Muslim I don't believe even a little bit on this insanity fairy tail

yes I want to continue my driving license no matter what because that's gonna be probably the only thing that can work for me and success on it small pathetic success but let it be

I have MD and adhd both of them help so much on my failure also depression also me being loser of course,I tried to overcome them but couldn't I always dream of having my best life traveling and living my life having good education in good country climb mountains go on a van , but everything is fake I had to face the reality afterwards to face how useless and loser I am and it's killing me slowly I just want to end it now because that's the best for me

best option for me is taking pills but I don't know what exactly to take and how much from each medicine to have quik death most painless as possible so if everyone have in answer I would appreciate it we have couple kind of medicines in the house

Hello - last night I decided I was going to mix a bunch of medications. I'm super sick rn, have a sinus infection, so I've been prescribed some meds and cough suppressants. I mixed the cough suppressants with sleeping pills and some other things, and I mean quadrupling doses of each thing. I realized today I went way overboard when I mentioned it casually to my mom and she got absolutely pissed. I think I really just didn’t care if I woke up or not. Did I seriously try to kms?

Theres not much else to say. I like saying bad things about myself because kindness and “self love” really gross me out. I like to tell myself that i mean nothing and that I should just die. If i wasnt afraid of blood i would cut myself all over and if I wasnt afraid of the after life, I would have been dead a really really long time ago. I hate my life. I hate myself. I am such a waste of a human and Im disgusting to even look at. I wish we knew what happens after we die just so I had a more of a choice.

What you guys think

and i forgot my login and i tried remeber because i hated being hospitalised for a year and i cant do this anymore again and it didn’t work last time i wish it works now

It would be the most likely way for me to die, but I don't want it to hurt or end up like some kind of fucking vegetable if I fail.

I don't want to see the hurt on my mother's face after she realises that now 3 out of her 5 kids have tried to kill themselves.

All I want is some easy way out of everything that just so happens to be non-painful and quick, because I want it to get better but I know my struggles are just going to get worse until I do something drastic about it.

Sorry to everyone I hurt Ik I wasn’t well. Il going to end it tonight.

I’m not scared of dying, I’m not depressed,I’m not angry. I just see dying as an inevitability. Whether I catch a bullet finally, or someone puts a knife in my neck. The infinite void will always be waiting, welcoming. The warm bath of comfort is forever there for me. It’s there for me like nobody has ever been. This has given me a sense of comfort. Despite the people I’ve hurt throughout my years, despite the sins and bad choices. It will always be there. I’ve already shot myself in the chest once, lived. I said it was an accident. I don’t regret it, I just wanted to gamble. This post is entirely a venting post, if you have any reactions, feel free to let me know what I’m doing wrong.

33M, I'm not crazy & the abuse wasn't my fault? I just want to know that it's not me. I feel gross inside me because of what happened.

I keep having dreams of talking to my loved ones and they never answer me. They look through me like I'm not there.

I've only ever stayed here to look after my loved ones. But it seems they've forgotten about me unless they want something. I've never felt a driving force to live unless I'm in survival mode.

Now that everyone is okay without me, I feel like I've done my part. There's nothing else for me here. I don't know why I'm screaming into the void. Even if someone cared just for a moment, it wouldn't change anything.

The world spins without us. We are all forgotten.

If this isn't the place to ask for support um mb then. (17M) I feel like I'm getting pulled closer to trying to commit suicide again, maybe not by choice but I'd rather not delay something that feels inevitable.

I don't have a plan but i have loose ideas, but I've got more plans of death than I do a actual future where I'm a decent human being and not a crazy alcoholic tweaker.

I'm just so unbelievably lost, I'm so behind with school, no fucking social skills, low self worth etc. don't really want to whinge but just venting a bit.

In the process of breaking up with my bf, this is so difficult to do. Sitting in my car rn just looking at the car in the garage imagining closing the garage and sitting in there with the car on… I wonder how long it would take. I’ve felt so numb since yesterday and now I’m feeling it :( I really hate everything rn

I am 22 male, I have a lot of history and reasons why I don't want to talk about my parents to much but I feel I have no outlet to talk about anything anymore, I have nothing anymore, I have survived being homeless and being alone for so many years now, no one in this world cares and there is no love for me, I made a close friend and because I lost control of myself once and said some awful things they abandoned me, I feel horrible for doing that to them, I can't feel close to anyone anymore I have only ever been worth what someone can use me for, I have a giving caring nature that I let people just use me for over and over again hoping they love me and I fail to see my own problem and change, cause honestly if I have to make such horrible changes to myself, I don't want to live in this world, I am alone, poor, hungry, I have PTSD and mass fears of betrayal and mistrust. I have no family either and it hurts to have zero support not emotionally or financially, I have been self-harming and it's getting easier to do it every time, I feel I might just fully commit soon. my PTSD makes me have constant attacks I feel so unsafe everywhere that I don't even remember what safety feels like.