Feel free to give me your unsolicited advice.
I'm finishing my Bachelorās this month and I'm planning to move out shortly after. Not because I want to but because circumstances are forcing me into it.
For context I come from a very narcissistic family, I have always been the golden child but at what cost. My parents are always on my siblings side and are always complaining about how all the money they earn is always going towards me. Why you may ask? I have always been smart so I always got into high ranking schools. My fees and mu siblings fees have never had a great difference, but mine has always been on the higher end.
After I F4 I got into uni, my brother on the other hand did he flopped his kcse and wasn't interested in school anymore but since he's always been a favourite my mum got him a motorcycle atleast afanye nayo kazi. He has never brought back home a penny lol and as we speak the nduthi is in the compound with some issues anangoja mama yake afix.
So in first year I moved put since my school is at a considerably long distance, I kid you not that was the only time my parents paid for that rent. I stayed there for the first month and sat on deposit on my second month the last month of that semester was hell since my rent wasn't paid and the caretaker alikuwa ananikatia. He'd come at my door in the middle of the night knocking asking me to use clitocurrency I kid you not. I was 17 at the time.
So the next sem I moved in with someone who needed a roommate. Again my parents pulled the same shit until I had to call my grandma who paid the rent for that sem. Then finally mu brother decided anataka kuenda shule and now I had to be the parent and apply to kuccps for him and all that he only qualified for artisan or whatever they call it. I with my 18 years was sent to go find where the school is for a 20 year old ,then was sent with him to help him with the application because "yeye hajui hizi vitu wewe ndio mwerevu" nani hajui jina yake na ID number. Msm.
Then came I have to move back home because now they have to pay fees for my brother and couldn't accommodate my housing, plus I didn't want the emotional turmoil of calling your parents asking for rent and they act surprised like they didn't know you needed it. I mow commute a total of around 5 hrs to and fro school. He finished his course in like 6 months but yeah I'm still commuting.
So after alot of struggling through campus with my grandma paying most of my school fees I've gotten to my final sem. So yesterday I was doing my project when my brother told me I need to go work (at my mum's shop) nikamwambia I have stuff to do and said the same to my mother. That guy said hutaki kusaidia na pesa yote ni wewe huwa unabeba. This nigga. My mum has used over 200k in March only to try get him a job abroad through those agencies. Money which she's probably been conned and is still in denial, how am I the one taking all the money? These guys haven't spent a dime taking me to a hospital in over 8 years and my brother is always in and out of the hospital because of reckless driving and alcohol poisoning all which is paid for in cash since we have no insurance. I could go on all day. Heeh.
So yesterday evening I went hapo to ask them what they want for supper. ISTG that spawn of hell hit me on the face, on the road side, in front of customers. I'm still in disbelief and tears just start flowing when I think about it. Guess what my mother still defended him and had the audacity to tell me " reu ni waganwo", "you see what youve done to yourself " , " huyo ni mwanaume ". I can't remember all that shot she said, bitch wtf. I honestly don't understand how it's my fault that i have a degree to complete and im not willing to compromise my time so that your son can go take his drugs and wet his dick. That's the creature you raised, how's that my problem I hadn't even spoken a word to that guy he just slapped me out of nowhere. And I also can't tell my father because he's also just his other enabler.
I've just been thinking about this all day long contemplated kms severally and decided it not worth it maybe I just need to rant.
That encounter just reminded me how much I need to move out and cut them off.
If you've reached here thanks for listening to my rant and if you know any place I can get affordable housing that's not far from town please suggest them. Also any female who is looking to moving out soon and needs a roommate please DM me. I promise I don't carry my trauma with me. I'm an expert itš.
Also anyone who has an opening for a job starting May please feel free to contact me. I need to get ways to pay the bills. Please.
Yeah I feel much lighter now and ik I'll probably delete this soon.