For some context, I'm in college and I've always questioned my sexuality and I've always been very indecisive, so it's safe to say that I'm bisexual but I hate going by labels so I suppose I'm just up for whatever, I've had my share of experiences in the past with the same gender but at the time of our relationship, that was all deep in the past and I wanted to forget it all. however, me and my ex broke up in February and I think it's safe to say everything that's going on, is faaaaar from finished. But here's my story so far
I got with this girl in April of 2024 and before and during the first few months of our relationship, everything was great, we loved each other and would always laugh when we were around one another. But later on, I began to question whether what Id gotten into was a friendship which was just under the wrong title. This is for a few reasons. The first reason was that she was VERY committed and seemed to want plan our entire lives ahead of the game, including weddings, houses, children etc. All of these kinds of conversations would kinda make me look into my future and feel almost trapped, like I'd signed a waiver telling me I MUST live this exact life and there is no way out. I don't know why I felt like this over someone I loved but it just seemed like a lot of pressure for someone of my age (17 at the time).
Another issue was that I have had a girl best friend who moved away, the full way across the country to manchester due to deep family issues, and me and her had been best friends for years before I even knew my ex, and in our relationship, she would never ever let it go. She would always ask old friends of mine about this girl and try to pry info out of them, almost as if she WANTED to find something to argue about, because that was her mentality. I do understand the suspicion behind me being best friends with another girl but she hardly ever said it to my face and would always try to bring our friends (Originally my friends from high school) into our drama.
Around two or three times in our year long relationship, I would travel across the country to meet this long term best friend of mine and stay at her house for a few days, for clarification, I would tell my gf every time I went up and we would sit down and talk about the situation, she would rightfully be anxious that I'm going to another girls house for the weekend but I'd always assure her that we were only friends (common sense should say that if me and my best friend were gonna date, we would have started dating YEARS before this). So I would always tell her that nothing would happen between me and her and we would reach a conclusion every time, both in agreement.
Every single time I'd be in Manchester, my girlfriend would always send me a LONG ass message, telling me how worried she is about if I'm doing stuff with my best friend and it would 99% of the time lead to a huge argument and we would be at a stalemate until I got back home, to which we would see each other in person again and joke around and everything would be fine.
If I was ever up in Manchester my best friend would always tell me that she sees something bad in my girlfriend, and that she's not healthy for me Becuase she starts all of these arguments, which is my next point.
Over almost ANY of my personal opinions that I'd share, she would cause a huge argument over it. I remember being in class and my table had a conversation that "if you had to kiss a celebrity of the same gender, who would it be" so I (pretty fairly) said 'kit Harrington' and she went off on a huge rant, asking me if I was still gay or if I still have feelings for guys etc, and this argument never really went away.
Introducing some more people, I was in a group with one other guy and 2 girls, the guy and one of the girls were dating and the other girl never felt anything towards men, let's call this group the silly sausages. So I would hang out with the silly sausages once or twice on a pretty even 2 week basis, we would hang at one of our friend's houses and always watch a horror film or two. And quite deep into our relationship me and the silly sausages decided to invite my girlfriend to hang out with us one time. The day went good but over the following days these friends would each tell me 'i see something strange in her', especially the girls since 'girls know girls'.
Anytime somebody said they saw something strange in my gf I wouldn't think anything of it since I loved her and 'I don't care what anyone else thinks'.
Time came around when concerts started going on sale and me and my gf went to 2 of them, both in October of 2024, 2 days apart. For one I had lent her a shirt with the band name on it Becuase she didn't have any merch so I gave it to her just for that one show. Besides that, earlier in the year I booked tickets to Billie Eilish and id asked my gf if she wanted to go with me and she said she couldnt and gave me the excuse of 'i haven't got enough money atm' which is valid, so rightfully so, I invited my best mate (the girl in Manchester). I thought that since my gf and by best mate have a big deal with each other, I'll tell my gf that I'm going with my cousin (of the same name as my best mate, by coincidence), just to save us from another argument. I thought it was a good idea so when comic con came around I asked my gf and she gave me the same excuse why she couldn't go, so invited the girl from 'the silly sausages' who isn't into guys cuz we both liked films etc. I used the same excuse in that I was going with my cousin yet again simply to avoid the arguments (which in the relationship, were genuinely CONSTANT)
A bit further near the end of the relationship me, the silly sausages, my gf and a few other close friends were sitting in a coffee shop (bear in mind I never gave my gf any details on my past relationships with other men Becuase it wouldn't be necessary) I go to the toilet with my guy friend cuz we both needed to go, and my gf and one of the girls from the group stand outside and one of the girls mentions one of my past experiences with a guy (Becuase at the time I was open with it and I foolishly told a lot of people a lot of the details etc). This, being new news to my gf, caused a very deep and embarrassing conversation and I had to explain who he was, what happened and everything in between, my legs were shaking the whole time And I hated every second of it. But we came to the conclusion that it was in the past and that I've changed. (She held onto the story and uses it against me later on Becuase that's just what she does and I knew she would do it)
Many many arguments and make ups, and trips back and forth from Manchester later, I was sat with 2 of my college friends, alone. My girlfriend wasn't around at the time And she'd booked us tickets to see Lana del Rey in 2025 whilst I was on holiday a month or two prior. And I spoke my mind to these friends and just said "guys... I feel like the only reason I'm still with her is Becuase she has the tickets to see Lana del rey, otherwise I'm fed up with the arguing Becuase it's making me miserable and putting too much stress on me". They both agreed and told me she wasn't good for me so when my gf walked into the class, she kept asking me what was wrong and we went outside to chat.
I told her that the commitment to our relationship was extremely heavy and it was putting way too much pressure on me and that I can't chain myself down to such a fixed path in life Becuase she'd plan our entire life all the time. To cut to the chase, I broke up with her that day and we went our seperate ways home and left on (what I thought) good terms, I was still gonna see Lana del Rey and we were gonna be friends.
Sidenote - So she had a tendency to make up stories in her head and believe them which caused her to overthink every situation, so during the breakup, i told her not to make up stories or reasons I ended the relationship and that I'd told her everything she needed to know, however she did not listen at all and would constantly be asking everyone questions about my past life, who my closest friends were, who my past relationships were etc.
One night which I will never forget, me and the silly sausages went to an escape room, then to a KFC (bear in mind my ex used to work at this KFC, but she quit months before this) then, one of the girls in the group said "how crazy would it be if my ex showed up cuz she used to work here" then she actually did walk through the doors and told the other guy in the group that she came in to get her sister a wrap (remember this info). Then me and the 2 other girls sat at a table quite far away and my mate (the male one) stayed behind and spoke to my ex.
My mate then came back to the table and my ex left, no wrap in hand, not even a bag. She never ordered anything. And my mate sat down with his food after half an hour of talking and told us everything she said, he has invited her to sit with us but she said "no I hate them, urm sorry, I hate HIM". This really annoyed the two other girls Becuase they had done nothing but help my ex when she was upset in the past and she's just gone and said she hates them, I don't think she meant 'just me' I reckon she MEANT 'i hate them' and realized who she was talking to so quickly switched up her words
Another thing that happened was that she was asking this friend all about whether I was gay, if I was trying to get with Manchester best friend or if I was trying to get with one of the girls of this group and she would not leave him alone that whole time.
We all came the the conclusion that she stalked the one of the friend's or my Snapchat locations Becuase a couple of days later she had a go at me for doing an escape room with the silly sausages when I said me and her were gonna plan one (during the relationship, which by this point, was over), I never told her we did an escape room, nobody did, and yet she knew?? Then she shows up at the same KFC as us? Then she leaves without buying the wrap for her sister like she said?? And once we all left the KFC, we looked at the car far behind and on the right of us in the car park which had 3 people in it, 2 in the front, one in the back. And we all said "that person in the back looks like my ex" so we stayed in the car park, acting like we were eating, I called Manchester friend Becuase she loved drama so the 4 of us plus Manchester friend on the phone are in the car and we come up with the idea that if the 2 girls go to put rubbish in the bin, they can get a better look at who is in the car. So when they leave to go to the bin, the girl in the back suspiciously ducks down so we can't see her.
The male friend in the silly sausages then snaps my ex, to try and find out where she is, and she sends a snap back saying she's at home in her room, however id been to her house many many times and the light fixture that was on the ceiling in the snap, was not the one in her room, so we all reckon she had fake snaps and she sent one to this friend as almost a decoy.
After we wait in the carpark for about 45 minutes we decided to leave and as we turn the first corner me and my friend both see the car leave and head the right direction as if u were going to my ex's house.
a week or two after, me and my college best mate (the only other guy from the Silly Sausages friend group) were in a lesson and I was talking about how much freeer I felt (my ex wasn't in the room at the time). My friend was talking all about how he's glad she's out of our lives Becuase he couldnt stand her attitude and hated the way she treated me so my friend did not like her at all. Then all of a sudden she walks in and sits down. She's quiet for a little bit and then turns to my friend and just says "so why do you hate me then". She basically sent the whole class into silence and my friend just mumbled something like 'i don't know I just don't like you' and she then turned to me and repeated herself saying 'what so you hate me too?? Is this how it is? Is this how you really feel about me?" Then she started fully shouting at us telling us how heartbroken she felt, with the entire class and the teacher listening in, then she stormed out.
This annoyed my friend so much since he'd just been ridiculed in front of everyone and that's when we both just thought "we need her fully out of our lives Becuase she isn't gonna give up on this breakup"
After that things died down but also got kinda worse. She blocked anybody who had anything to do with me on Snapchat and Instagram and whatever else she could, but she never blocked me on Pinterest, which I found odd Becuase she would always question me on my Pinterest Becuase I'm an artist so there's a lot of nude drawing of men and women on there Becuase I was doing drawings about the human body at the time, so there was a lot of naked drawings on there etc, so shed always act off about that. So I found that interesting. Anyways, I had a tattoo inspo board on Pinterest and one of the tattoos was on the 'little finger's side of the hand, right on the edge, and it was just words, and I wanted my favorite Lana del rey album tattooed there. A few days later she comes into college late and rumors go around saying she has a tattoo, I ask a close friend of hers what the tattoo is of and she said " it says honeymoon, it's on the side of her hand and she says it's her favorite Lana del Rey album". That really got to me, Becuase during our relationship, Honeymoon was 'our' album becuase id had a birthday party themed around it so it was quite significant to us both, so why she would steal one of my designs and get that specific album tattooed is absolutely mental to me.
One final thing she did , which was literally the other day, was (remember I lent her that band T-shirt for that concert?) well, j never got it back after the breakup and she wore it into college the other day and I'm looking at demanding to have that shirt back Becuase I never told her she could keep it and it would be common courtesy to give it back.
That's pretty much the whole story though so Thanks for reading it, I'll update this if anything else happens.