r/toastme • u/unorig1na1 • 4d ago
Can’t believe I’m doing this.. but my depression has been winning the fight these last few years. I’ve gone MIA to nearly everyone in my life & I feel this close 🤏 to losing everything and myself. I’m extra down right now and would appreciate some toasts.
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u/Competitive_One6371 4d ago
I’ve been in this place multiple times in life I wish I had there answers for you. I sabotaged relationships to make sure no one would mitts me after I made a permanent decision. Life is hard. Extremely hard. Reach out if you need to talk. I get it more than most.
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u/unorig1na1 3d ago
Thank you. Sabotaging relationships is my MO 🙃 weird how the brain works.
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u/Competitive_One6371 3d ago
You and me both, unfortunately. That’s another permanent solution to a temporary problem though. When you start to push people away, reach out to someone who can talk you through it.
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u/unorig1na1 3d ago
I can’t respond to every comment but I just wanted to give a serious thank you to each and every one of you. There were a lot of toasts that stuck with me & i’ve saved for future reminders, and I appreciate all of you for taking the time to toast me.
(Also, a lot of you recommended therapy and medication and I have been doing both. Just wanted to throw it out there that I am receiving professional help)
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u/Swimming-Bat-3218 3d ago
I wish you all the strength to overcome this depression. You are beautiful and you deserve to live a happy life.
I know too well, that the mind can be a pita sometimes. Keep fighting that demon haunting you, with all the help you can get. Family, friends, doctors, random guys on the internet.
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u/sbrown_13 4d ago
Hun I know you’re battling your demons right now, but you’re amazing! You might not feel loved and valid in the world but you are wanted and have people who care about you deeply. Don’t listen to those negative thoughts in your head. You are someone, you are important, and you are loved. Your incredibly gorgeous, please keep pushing on xx ✨
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u/Pronouns_It_WTF 4d ago
Every passing moment is another chance ro turn it all around. Try to take some walks, listening to some upbeat 80s pop. Watch a few heartwarming movies. It will not fix everything but hopefully cheer you up a bit. If you love animals, check out the movie Flow. It is beautiful and sweet. Best of luck! 😊
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u/Cactusjuice471 4d ago
Wow.. your absolutely stunning
I don't know what's going on, and if you'd be open to talking I'd love to. But I do know that, remember this.. everything is going to be okay. I promise you, everyone else commenting here promises you.
I can tell just from looking at you, your well dressed, clearly take care of yourself and likely have a nice job, you have such sweet eyes. Your perfect ma'am. And the exact type of person I wish I had in my life, okay? So hang in there. Please. The world needs you 🫂
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u/GandalfTheJaded 4d ago
I'm sorry you've had such a rough time. I'm happy you're still here. You're not beaten. Remember things can change for the better, even if it doesn't feel that way sometimes. You do have the power to change things. You are stronger than your depression. Don't give up on yourself ❤️
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u/mcgavinkasey 4d ago
You got this! 🙌🏼 Don't let the depression get to you. You are beautiful and smart a dangerous combo in this world! Go do big things!! 💪🏼
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u/LighthouseCPA 4d ago
Go for a walk and clear your head. Stay calm. Take a few deep breaths. Things will get better.
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u/CanadienSaintNk 4d ago
It's alright to struggle, please take the time to recognize what you need/want from people and seek it out in healthy interactions that are positive for you and your surroundings. It's not irregular to distance ourselves from potentially shallow connections. The battle for our mental health can be confusing all the time, so give yourself some leeway to breathe and decompress. Be honest with yourself and others.
You seem to be working hard in your life and it shows; you're beautiful by conventional standards that take more work than most like to acknowledge, that kind of hard work no doubt echoes in the rest of your life too. if things don't work out, I don't think that'll necessarily be a fault of yours. Be malleable, a job is a means to your dreams after all. Economically the world is shifting and finding a place you can call yours among a people/community/neighbourhood/even just one neighbour you can feel safe surrounded by can really help.
Give 'em hell
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u/En-Otter-Kay 4d ago
No, don't dare let it win! You are an awesome person, and seem very lovely and sweet. You just need to find your path. Don't listen to what your brain tells you. Start reaching out back to those people in your life. Or find new ones, if you can't win alone, always ask for help.
I don't know if it can help or not, but when I feel down I watch "A reason to fight" song clip of Disturbed concert of some years ago. (Metal band, but that song is a ballad, so could be fine even if you are not into metal)
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u/Glad-Specialist6330 3d ago
Don't give up! I read in one of your comments that you're taking meds under doctor supervision. Excellent. From experience I can tell you that finding the right drug and dosage can be a grueling game of trial and error. But in the long run it's worth it. Keep reaching out to this community whenever you need encouragement. Best wishes, you GOT this!
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u/Sugestible_liability 3d ago
I was in a mess the other day and on the phone to my friend who works in the office (I am site based). I just didn’t have the strength to fight it anymore and was pretty inconsolable. She said something to me that stuck, she said you are stronger than you think because you reached out whatever that looks like. I knew I needed to lean on someone and I chose her I have walked away from pretty much all my friends for various reasons mostly because I tend to isolate when I’m low. You have reached out in a way you can deal with (Reddit) you are worth more than you know and you will eventually beat this. I’m routing for you and know how you feel but fighting it is better than listening to it. Sadness can feel all consuming sometimes but you are worth so much more and I pray you see that one day and realise what a blessing you truly are.
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u/mrbuff20 3d ago
The funny thing about depression is you don't neccesarily notice it in appearance. As with you, you are a really pretty woman that gets eyes locked on your beauty, not that it is something you want now i reckon. Despite that depression is the hardest job you will get in your lifetime. When you battle this you can handle everything in this world. You can do this. Take it one day at a time. Meds can really help people out and is nothing to be ashamed of, as is depression itself. You're a warrior!
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u/SacredFeetWitch 3d ago
Sorry it's been this hard, I feel you. You got this! You can do anything. You are so much more than you realize. I promise this too shall pass. I'm sending you all the good vibes and long distance hugs.
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u/TurnipPrestigious890 3d ago
Hey sweetheart (sorry if that’s weird), but I think you’ve got what it takes to make it through life. You are not only very beautiful, but I get kind vibes from your picture. I bet you’re lovely to be around and would charm the socks off anybody you meet. You’re extra brave for letting us in on what’s been going on, and I think I speak for all when I say, you’ve got this! You are brave. You are beautiful, inside and out, and you’re much much stronger than you think. Chin up you can accomplish wonders.
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u/Kris_Down_Under 3d ago
You’re here, you matter. I’ve gone MIA ok friends and family so many times, myself. It can be so overwhelming sometimes, especially when you feel like one more thing will bring your house of cards down. You haven’t lost everything yet and you haven’t lost yourself.. The world is going to beat all of us down, but you have to grab that bitch by the neck and tell it no, not me, not today, not ever. Find your strength, you obviously have it making it this far. Push forward, girl. You absolutely can do this.
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u/ondeank 3d ago
The kindest eyes I have seen in the longest time. Please Research ketamine for depression you are too young and beautiful to be lost to this disease. Let me know if you have any questions dm me. I went through the treatment and it changed my life
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u/HarveyWorld73 3d ago
Toast to a beautiful woman who looks like she has just as beautiful a soul. A beautiful woman with the strength that she never knew she had that will shine daily from this day forward.
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u/KnownAsJake96 3d ago
Depression is a daily hard battle and it is not easy to win every day, but it is important to know that life are highs and lows and don't be to hard on yourself. You are gorgeous I feel like i fall in love a first sight though my pc ahahha
Best of luck in life, i hope u can find someone that really loves you
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u/youthink2much 3d ago
Your success rate for overcoming rough days is 100% - you're doing amazing and even when you don't feel like it, you'll find a way to make it though. Just like you have, time and time again.
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u/Unicorn-princess11 3d ago
You’re a natural beauty and have kind eyes. Don’t give up on yourself. After rock bottom it can only go up from there. You deserve to be happy.
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u/throwaway2901750 3d ago
I’m a little late to the posting, but I hope my comments help you.
It’s really hard to battle depression, and it’s something that other people don’t see and is pretty nuanced amongst those facing it. If you’re not already talking to someone, talking to a supportive professional can help.
When you are feeling a little down, it may help to remember that you’ve already lived through your worst days. You may be able to look back and think about a long list of hardship, but you survived all that already! You’re already stronger than the worst life threw at you and you’re still moving forward. You’re more than the sum of your parts and stronger than what you lived through.
When things are hard for me, I like to go and sit in the Sun. Just soak up the Sun and feel it on my face. It helps me feel connected to the universe and perhaps you have something like that that could help you?
You are special, important, and valued to people in your life.
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u/Former-Jury3415 2d ago
Toasting you girl. From one person dealing with depression to another -its an ongoing process for me I don't know how you have it but there is always an upside and an other side, My dad once told me that life is like a ball of shit. you go through life it's a pile of shit, then you hit an air pocket and it's smooth sailing and then it's right back in the shit again. Yeah it's like that but lean on us when you need a friend. It's gonna get better even if it all seems like a pile of shit, Trust me. Much love.
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u/Illustrious_Lie6031 2d ago
Stop listening to the lies told to you by you in your head. It's perception. It's contrived. It's not real. It's hard, but stop. The human condition is: I'm stupid No one likes me I'm ugly I'm an imposter I'm not good enough I'm weak
It's all a pack of lies. Control it. Nobody is watching.. You are none of those things. Kill the voice.
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u/leelee2609 10h ago
You look like you hear, "But you're so pretty though....." like being attractive absolves you from real life situations.
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u/schaukelwurmv 4d ago
Have a hug, love! It's not much, but I mean it.
Do you play online games or something? Something to cope?
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u/PleaseHelp83828 4d ago
Things can/will get better. Please ask for help. I personally am on antidepressants and can share my experience if it helps you.
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u/anjiemin 4d ago
The fact that you posted here and being vulnerable makes me think you are a brave one. I am sure you are a great person and you are doing your best to live the best life. I hope everything goes well for you!
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u/ClearLingonberry8783 4d ago
I completely understand how you feel. I feel the same way a lot of the time. This is a song that makes me feel better in bad times.
Chris Orrick - Stories
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u/bookishlibrarym 4d ago
Oh, I’m so so sorry. Depression is a thing I’m quite familiar with and it’s all through my family-mostly the women. My daughter has clinical depression and anxiety. She just started back on Prozac coupled with Wellbutrin. This combo has been effective for my niece. I take Wellbutrin and it works for me. I also get outside every day and I exercise and try to eat healthy. I also take Vitamin D and during the winter months if I am north I use a happy light. Please please please, reach out to a trusted friend or family member for help. Or you could pm me and I’d be happy to chat with you via text or phone. I’m thinking of you and sending you warm thoughts and a very big hug.
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u/unorig1na1 3d ago
Thank you very much. I can sense that you are a very kind soul… depression runs through the women in my family as well and I hope and pray every day that my daughter doesn’t struggle the way I did as she grows up. I’m glad to hear you found something that works for you, your daughter & niece. I’m on Lexapro but may need to discuss trying something different with my doctor.
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u/Natetronn 4d ago
In a dark place, but still brightening the whole world with her glowing presence.
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u/Much-Blacksmith3885 4d ago
This shall pass. Everyone goes through this some just try to hide it. But it takes a lot of courage to admit and that’s a great sign. You are very beautiful Btw
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u/Alarming_Jaguar_3988 3d ago
I am so sorry that you are going through this. I am sending you healing vibes and hugs. Please know that everything will be ok. Please be kind to yourself.
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u/Unlucky-Isopod-1206 3d ago
I'm sorry things are rough for you right now. As someone who recently went through similar feelings, the thing that helped me most was trying to refocus on the things that i loved. You have a lovely pupper and a rambunctious kitty that both love their mom desperately. You've recently gotten your adorable freckles back. Your appearance and dress seem well put together, and even if that is just a front, fake it till you make it is a valid strategy, along with daily affirmations and refocus.
And if that doesn't do enough, I can only recommend finding a therapist, even if it's Telehealth, and possibly pursue a medication to help, like I ended up having to.
I believe in you, and if you ever want to chat, feel free to reach out. I will try to help if I can.
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u/emilybemilyb 3d ago
Hang in there, things will turn around. Brighter days ahead, literally and figuratively. We’re rooting for you ♥️
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u/roaringhiccups 3d ago
You look like you have such a bright future ahead of you, with so many possibilities of happiness. You’ve been fighting so hard, you’re still here (yay!) & you can get through this. The best is on its way & so many people are rooting for you!
If you ever need to talk know that I’m here :)
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u/PM_ME_UR_CUTE_PETZ 3d ago
As someone who just started antidepressants a few months ago, I feel your struggle. I hope things turn around for you soon, friend.
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u/wishiwasfiction 3d ago
You have some of the most beautiful eyes I've seen, you'll get through it. Don't be so hard on yourself. Better days will come, just start by trying things you like to do.
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u/oceanblue0714 3d ago
What hurts? Think about it, and let love flow through your pain. God loves you always.
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u/medgarazzur 3d ago
I have had depression for 30 years. Seek professional help. It is worth it
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u/Arnheimer1983 3d ago
I really hope that you start winning your fight against your depression. You seem like a tough person so I hope that you can win everything back!
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u/Ok_Application_5557 3d ago
You remind me of Alina Zagitova, beautiful ice skater champion that I find to be one of the most beautiful people ever. You have kind eyes too which makes me assured you're a great person too.
I'm sure you'll find new place of comfort and happiness in your life if you just stay strong and brave. I know I would be glad to be your friend if we were in the vicinity.
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u/Distraught-friend 3d ago
Beauty please don’t spiral anymore. Life is tough, I know and tougher for others. Please know that I don’t want you to be sad or depressed. You deserve so much love and light. Let it come through so you can feel it. Fight the good fight baby girl. Put up them dukes and kick some @$$ !
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u/Kepenekela 3d ago
I understand wanting to recoil into yourself (i’ve done so for 20 years) and not want the world to see you. That you keep pushing forward and not letting the negative thoughts own you tells me you are a fighter. This post shows you are trying to rise above it. What ever is bringing you down know you can overcome. Hope you are seeking therapy and have someone to vent to. I have myself to strangers with similar feelings that showed me their amazing strength. If you want to vent to me you can, i’ll listen. Sure there are others here too.
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u/ReactionCharming2062 3d ago
Hang in there my dear. You're really good looking! I wish you all the best. I take Escitalopram 20mg for my depression. I suggest you see a GP (Dr.) without delay. Try taking a walk every second day if possible. I'm thinking if you!
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u/Penchimako 3d ago
I am sorry you're struggling. Life is constantly changing... the impermanence... even in darkness, know it will eventually pass and light will shine through... darkness will come again but it will eventually pass again too.... Stay strong ❤️
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u/MonachopsisEternal 3d ago
MIA is a trait for depression. But fight like a warrior and fight for you . I know you can beat it, internet stranger
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u/jphipps89 3d ago
I don’t know you, but I felt this post hard. I’ve been in that dark place where it feels like everything is slipping away, like you’re screaming inside but the world doesn’t hear it. And I just want to say, I see you. I hear you. What you’re feeling is so heavy, but you’re still here, and that means something. That means everything. You’re not weak for feeling this way, you’re strong for surviving it every day. I hope you hold on. The world is better with you in it, even if you can’t see it right now. You matter. You’re not alone.
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u/dietcherrycocacola 3d ago
hey girl! depression is a terrible thing, and battling it is rarely pretty. don't beat yourself up for isolating yourself, or doing what you believe feels right in the moment. truthfully, i'd reach out to those in your life and attempt to explain the reasoning behind going MIA, and they make be more understanding than you expect and they may surprise you. i feel for you, since i know just how depression tells you are alone and how you are losing– but it is not true. the negativity you internally hear is depression, and not reality, and not really you. i truly hope you may, also, show yourself some grace :) be kind to yourself, and try to do the things you love– and maybe that will help ground you & make you feel closer to yourself! you are so beautiful, and so strong for fighting this fight. i believe in you <3
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u/mr_bl3e 3d ago
Don't give up! Making it through life by yourself(or with few ppl) just shows how strong of a person you really are. Your beautiful btw 👍
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u/Familiar_Meeting8848 3d ago
Girl, God thinks you are so special and so do I. There is no one else out there who can do you like you do. He woke you up today because he still has a part for you in his big plan. Thank you for being you today ❤️
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u/omniverse911 3d ago
Don't give up on tomorrow before you've made it through today. You never know what the next sunrise might bring. You are beautiful, breathtaking and strong. Keep smiling and looking forward.
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u/bruderbond 3d ago
The energy around you from your pic is amazing…….you are where you are supposed to be, be nice to yourself💓
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u/BuffyTheUmpireSlayer 3d ago
Nothing wrong with reaching out to others when you're struggling.
You have beautiful eyes (eyebrows are on point), wonderful lips; just such a pretty face framed very well by your hair.
Sorry it's been a struggle for you lately, show yourself some grace, reach out to others if you can make yourself. You've been strong for others when they've struggled, I'm sure they'll be glad to return the favor as you get yourself right.
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u/walkingsadist_3301 3d ago
I see the pain in your eyes, whatever it is you feel, is completely valid, it makes you wonder what is the point of all this? Yeah I’ve been there. It doesn’t matter what people say. It’s you who can’t make sense of the kind words. We all know you’re completely gorgeous, scars and all. But it doesn’t matter, it’s just an image of your physical being, not your soul. You want your soul to be seen and healed. Well I feel it. Something pulled me in to saying all of this to you. I see your soul. I’m here for you ❤️
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u/Fun-Order-3339 3d ago
Whatever is bringing you down, face it head on, and overcome. If you’re feeling depressed, develop a daily workout routine. It will make you feel better. Smile even if you don’t feel like it. It will make you happier.
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u/1313mick 3d ago
Start talking to strangers anybody about anything you will be surprised how it makes you feel I don’t know that’s what I did and it helped.
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u/bmcke045 3d ago
So this may be a silly/small thing, but for what it is worth I would adore to have a view like yours! My office is on the ground floor and has bars on the windows (that's what I get for living in a post-conflict country)! Things will get better in time, so for now I hope you enjoy the little things and enjoy that view!
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u/Tackybabe 3d ago
You look like Detective Amy Santiago, from Brooklyn 99, and I respect her a lot (as a fictional character); you have the face of a hardworking, truthful and intelligent person, and I think I would let you represent me in court, or join my trivia team, if I had one! 👍🏻
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u/RecentAd1159 3d ago
I've been there too dear and believe it isn't going to be this way forever. I hope you find new blessings...I'm happy you look pretty still
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u/Heavy-Resolution-555 3d ago
You're beautiful, and You're worth it. Depression can be a nasty beast. You're better than it. Focus on Yourself. I went thru something similar when I was in My late 30's. I thought I had "lost" My fiends. In reality they were all worried. I was losing weight and isolating. Told Me I should have reached out sooner. (I had a miscarriage)
Sometimes the ugliest voice is Our own, but it's not Your fault!
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u/wusgoodie 3d ago
I am sorry to hear about your struggles and give my condolences to you.
If there is one thing to toast about you, it is the fact that you are still here and have been fighting your depression for this long. You may not think much of it, but it is very impressive and a testament to how strong you truly are. Do not be disheartened nor embarrassed about where you are right now. There is nothing to be ashamed of at all.
And I guarantee that you have loved ones in your life right now who deeply care about you. Even if you can't fully think of anyone on mind, at the very least you have myself and the other commenters here who want to show you the deserving sympathy and kindness.
Please keep fighting and trying to stay strong. You are strong. You are persevering. You are brave. You are beautiful. (Stunning tbh) You are loved.
I am sure this goes for the other commentors, but you can always send a PM if you ever need someone to hear your words and listen. We are here for you!
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u/Darkvoid61 3d ago edited 3d ago
Honey you are absolutely gorgeous and as somebody else noted you seem to be taking care of yourself well so that it takes a great degree of self consideration. As for the ignoring everybody in your life thing that just compounds I understand that I haven't spoken to my two best friends in a year for one and two years for the other and the more time you spend not talking to the people you care about the more afraid you get of how you're going to fix that problem and then you say should you even try and you should right now I'm in a new friend who I'm pretty close with in the last 2 months and it's just felt pretty great to be around other people consistently that you like and for depression self-isolation is a very dangerous tool because we are social creatures and isolation equals death in the mind so hopefully everything will get better soon deary.
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u/ZenoArrow 3d ago
You're in a place where you don't want to be right now, going MIA is your way of coping with that and that's okay, everyone struggles in their own way and you have to help yourself before you can help others. Can you remember when your depression started? Was there a time before it was a major factor in your life?
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u/D-redditAvenger 3d ago edited 3d ago
I could say a lot of nice things to temperamentally make you feel better, I think others here have got you covered in that way. Instead I will write what I would tell my daughter if she was you. And really this is what I today would tell myself when I was your age.
Just remember, happiness isn't the default human condition and in fact the pursuit of happiness can be and often is a trap. I am not judging you or condemning you because you feel that way. What I am trying to say is there is nothing wrong with you if you don't feel happy. It's OK. You may have very good reason to feel the way you do, life is hard, and it's a hard time right now. But that also means you are not going to be feeling this way forever either. You are going to have times of sadness and times of great joy. That's life.
If you get over the mountain you don't think back to the climb the way you did while you were on it. The climb is a part of the whole journey.
OP do yourself a favor and strive instead to be content. The way you do that is to take pride in doing and being good. You only have control over yourself, so judge yourself on how well you do that. Not external things. You can start that today and every day. Look even if you are unhappy because in the past you haven't done as well as you think you could. You can still change that. It's the key OP. Not who you are, or your things, or even the people who love you, even how you feel at the moment, but doing good when it's easy or even when it's hard, is the key to a successful life. It's the key to contentment. If you do that all the other things will come.
It's OK to be who you are. It's enough.
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u/DrSalmonCruncher 3d ago
Just by reaching out, you’ve shown that you will be okay. Keep suiting up and showing up. Force yourself to be active. Physical activity and social interactions are your safe place. Make them happen daily. Gonna suck at first. Just keep doing it. People watching is a social interaction.
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u/BackgroundGarbage469 3d ago
Depression is like mold— it wants to stay inside, dark and damp, and grow. Treat it like mold. Clean your space, get some sunlight, exercise. I take meds, but you still have to do the work too. Keep at it, keep searching for the song that only you hear. There is no right way to do this life, a lot of wrong ones
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u/No_Statistician7685 3d ago
Clean your space, get some sunlight, exercise.
Very easy to say.
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u/swt_carroty 3d ago
Sweety, you are going through a tough time right now, it is understandable. But I tell you that tough times don't last, only tough people do.. You will bounce back. Love is in the air. Grab it and move on again.
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u/sunnysideofthestr 3d ago
You look stunning. Such a well balanced mix of grace, emotion and pure beauty, it is almost painful.
I am sure there is someone for you out there.
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u/Tangelo_Few 3d ago
Whatever you have lost, however you have lost it, or have had it taken away from your side… you are a survivor. Survivors are warriors, they carry the weight of the world on their shoulders because they are the only ones capable of moving forward even when everything else around them crumbles. Warriors might be knocked down, they may move slowly, and often in silence… but they are resilient and their heart is the strongest of all. Please do not give up, there are so many others who depend on your character and smile to make it through their day. We pay a heavy price for being warriors, but it’s because we are the only ones that are willing to do so for others.
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u/BlueberryIcecream27 3d ago
You are beyond gorgeous! I could only dream of looking like you! Each day gives a new opportunity to rise, you will get there!
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u/BFreelander 3d ago
You can come to a pottery class with me, it's fun. I'm 53, MtF trans woman. Sometimes things suck, I've been through some stuff.
Try to find one thing that you look forward to doing. Get in a group that you see at least every week. You'll make great friends that way.
Good luck with everything.
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u/friedfood_55 3d ago
You’re young and beautiful. And worthy. Keep fighting. No defeat baby, no surrender!
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u/Chanamoo 3d ago
You remind me of Karen from The Office lol... That said, don't let life beat you down too hard. It can be a struggle just trying to get through day by day. Whether it's through medication, making new friends or finding changes in your life that can change the mental aspect in your life for the better, I'm sure there's a way forward for you.
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u/Key_Inevitable_5201 3d ago
You are brave Queen! It takes a lot to be vulnerable and ask for help so I am so proud of you! You are beautiful and often people forget that beautiful people can be in a dark place regardless of how they look on the outside. I am rooting for you to feel great about who you are and what you bring to the world! Be kind to yourself because you can overcome these feelings!
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u/Crunchy-Cloud 3d ago
I hope you heal soon, honey. You are gorgeous, your face is really beautiful, specially I love those big expressive eyes. Perfect eyebrows and lovely long hair. If you want to feel better just look at the mirror, you're such a beauty!
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u/kcguy54 3d ago
Well for one thing, you are stunning, which is more than I can say about a lot of women. So you have that going for you.
Depression is about worrying about things in the past, anxiety is about worrying about things in the future. So people literally worry about things that don't exist. The only thing that is relevant is right now.
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u/Odd-Mastodon1212 3d ago
Are you in therapy? Are you on medication? Brain chemistry is a real demon sometimes, and the world is on fire. I hope you know that it’s OK to take time for yourself and lick your wounds, but you also deserve to be loved. You can ask for space, and you can reach out again. I bet most people miss you a lot and just want the best for you. You’re so pretty, and you’re reminding me that we don’t know what people are going through on the inside.
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u/UncoloredPiano9 3d ago
you’re drop dead gorgeous and you seem super sweet. A quote that’s helped me during dark times is: “if you can’t find the light, become the light”
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u/S1R3ND3R 3d ago
This may sound left field but consider having your thyroid checked and your hormone balance checked. I’ve struggled with depression my entire adult life and over the years I have realized that I am a slave to my body’s chemistry. Even when my life is basically fine, I feel defeated for no reason. Our brains literally can become hardwired for depression. The power of chemistry is amazing and it can alter the way we experience life.
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u/MrRealitydotcom 3d ago
Please remember this, you’ve come this far, you’ve done great things, even the tough things have been learning experiences. Just one day at a time. Look at even the smallest blessings in these singular days. Have patience and grace towards others and especially towards yourself. ✌️
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u/Damntainted 3d ago
I'm so sorry you are struggling. You are truly beautiful but look like the sort of person that the beauty isn't just skin deep. I hope you can find some happiness and know that an internet stranger cares for you.
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u/Grimwohl 3d ago
I get it. It's hard to be enthusiastic and involved in friends' lives the way they deserve when your own battles are, at the moment, too big for you.
I think depression has yoinked the legs out of most of my friendships. I can't blame anyone but me for it, but at the same time, the emotional energy is pretty much drained.
Progress isn't linear, and setbacks happen. I hope you feel better and stronger soon. For what it's worth, I think you are beautiful, even in the no makeup photos you've posted. Whoever made you feel bad about yourself can kick rocks.
I hope your wedding is all bells!
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u/Accomplished-Sky6 3d ago
Remember to tell yourself the special Mantra everyday and if you get the chance write it on your mirror or put a sticky note. "I won't always feel this way". Now this won't really fix the problem right away, it probably won't fix the problem next week or in a month.. But eventually you will find a moment of normality and the shifting sands of your life will feel a little more grounded and solid.
You can so the thing, I believe in you 🎉✌️😁
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u/ihavestinkytoesies 3d ago
you are absolutely stunning. but more importantly you are resilient, strong, smart and you have lived through every one of your bad days so far. when im sad i like to remind myself why my tattoo says “no rain no flowers”. we must experience darkness to truly appreciate the light. sending love and huge friend, the world needs you here
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u/Latter-Drummer-6677 3d ago
We all go through ups and downs. You are perfect. It saddens me to see such posts. Maybe volunteer at hospital. Your life will forever be changed.
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u/InAdjCarcosa 3d ago
Sometimes our brains hate us, but you are not hated. You’ve got this. You will find your people. A toast to you and the hopeful eventuality that your baseline returns. <3
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u/GlitteringSnow6806 3d ago
There is only so much you can control. Make good decisions, try your best even if you fail. But please don’t give up. May you find God on the way in all this. You are never alone, God knows your troubles and how much you can handle. May God give you strength and keep you. Calming your mind, quieting your spirit. In the name of Yeshua, amen.
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u/seanieh966 3d ago
Sure many have said this but you are really beautiful. Of course inner demons are not related to how you look, but the it is. I hope you find light at the end of the tunnel you’re in at the moment. Be brave and maybe try new things to challenge the status quo.
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u/AmbitiousRepublic201 3d ago
Dealing with depression is not an easy journey… it is a journey that may go on for few weeks to years, and I am sorry to hear you have been dealing for quite some time now. Though, I am sure this experience has made you stronger! Believe in yourself and trust on things to get better.
Be resilient, be hopeful, and aim to be positive.
You got this, of that I am sure 🫶🏼
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u/Sideways_Sam 3d ago
I have that same B & D table top heater at my place. Hope you're staying warm and cozy.
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u/seanieh966 3d ago
Your friend was right. The first step to a solution is recognizing you need one. Baby steps.
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u/Few_Yesterday9068 3d ago
A Toast to you. Proud of you for being so vulnerable and open. You are a warrior. God Bless you.
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u/TalesOfLohr1 3d ago
You have a face full of curiosity. Never lose that characteristic. It is a brave and valuable one.
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u/nic__knack 3d ago
you’re beautiful and seem smart and kind! coming from someone possibly in a similar age group going through something similar and in a very similar headspace, i hope it does get better for you/us and i have hope. if you ever need a friend, let me know! happy to chat/commiserate/build each other up. keep your chin up!
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u/Ecstatic_Lab_6393 3d ago
Don’t know you and never met you and may never meet you, but you are a very beautiful human being!! I don’t know your story or what is causing your depression. From experience, All is not lost though. All of us struggle and have our moments, good moments and bad moments. Take care in your bad moments and treat yourself with kindness. All is not lost, there’s always tomorrow to look forward to.
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u/IamMooz 3d ago
I don't know you, but I wish you well! Keep fighting!
Can I suggest a good romantasy book to get you ugly crying as a release?
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u/Yashendwirh 3d ago
Goddamn your eyelashes are so billowy and full they could cause a category five.
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u/Round-Implement-6742 3d ago
First of all you're beautiful. Please don't leave us in a moment of darkness. You have a wealth of abilities and attributes that would lift our world to new heights. Please talk to me about your doubts, fears and sadness, and l will try to show you how just one loving friend whose been where you are can make a difference. Sincerely, Francis
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u/Calm_Employee_7502 3d ago
A toast ! Don’t give up ! I have been there and could feel overwhelming!!
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u/Brief-Hat-8140 3d ago
You remind me of Meghan Markle but prettier. I hope you find some peace and hope.
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u/SunnysideupFl1125 3d ago
You’re beautiful. And you have the multi appeal type of face which is so in demand right now. If I were you, I would go see the premier headshot photographer, and get your head shots done and go talk to a couple of agencies. You could potentially make a lot of money….
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u/Outrageous-Device-69 3d ago
I'm truly sorry about everything you are going through & I know what it like to go through depression but it can get better & I want you to know Jesus Christ doesn't make any mistakes you are wonderfully made & truly beautifuI I can see a beautiful smile you & you have very pretty eyes love the way it shine & you have a very cute nose plus the long hair look great & Jesus Christ love you & is there for you & as a true believer in Jesus Christ I love & care about you too & I pray in the name of Jesus that you are able to eventually heal completely from anything that is going on & everything get better for you & in Jesus precious & Holy name I pray amen. 🙏🏾🤟🏾❤️ Hang in there I know it rough at the moment but God willing it will get better & if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to inbox me anytime & I will respond as soon as I can & God bless 🙏🏾🤟🏾❤️
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u/Ok-Bullfrog-7519 3d ago
You are stunning! You could be a supermodel. Im sorry you dealing with depression! Don’t give up. It will get better.
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u/Axiom_IO 3d ago
Well the fact that are here is testament to you blessings. You are are alive, proof of life is proof of purpose and proof of purpose comes with the unalienable right of the bearer to find and fulfil it. I am happy that you are here and that your very existence has helped me to fulfil mine in part. You are worth more than you know and feel and I pray you find the courage to keep going and keep growing into what you are meant to be. Don't be afraid to rebuild some bridges, the best people often wait for you to return.
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u/Liongooder 3d ago
We've all been there tbh, time heals everything, but you can distract yourself with a few activities, go for a walk or do some exercises, reading was the coolest for me, go camping you may feel you're not up to anything cause you reached your rock bottom, just push yourself and don't forget to do some good and help those in need. Helping others gives an aura of serenity and tranquility.
PS Only you can help yourself
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u/johndoe1942sn 3d ago
Life is so difficult, and it makes it even worse when no one understands your depression. It’s so isolating, painful and exhausting. All you can do is take it one day at a time. Proud of you for making it this far! Keep fighting every day! Rage against the dying of the light!
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u/alwaysautumnx 3d ago
You are beautiful and don't let anyone ever tell you differently. Whatever struggle you're going through, just know: this too shall pass.
You've got this, keep your head up! Sending you strength, good vibes and internet hugs
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u/Kind_Assignment_ 3d ago
May not be a typical comment but being that beautiful and smart, in a way where you see the world as it really is, tends to result in depression. I bet that you weren't always treated with kindness. I've seen this with kind/intelligent/beautiful people in real life and it's a "throwing pearls to swine" scenario where you internalize other people's crap. Maybe I'm wrong but this is my guess. Don't be hard on yourself 🩷
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u/SwissYouWereHere 3d ago
I never used to believe this, but things do get better.
Also, you are positively stunning and have very inviting, kind eyes. :-)
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u/Suspicious-Gold-9947 3d ago
I’m sure your loved ones would love to hear from you. You seem lovely and I bet you light up their lives! They say one of the greatest tragedies in life is that you are loved more than you will ever know!
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u/TejelPejel 3d ago
Depression is rough. It's hard for all of us when it decides to flare up. In my darkest moments, when I felt I was on the edge and so hauntingly lonely, all I wanted to hear was that I wasn't alone. Well, the one hundred+ comments from this thread should at least show one very important thing: you are not alone. There are days where all you can do is use your strength to get through the day, and that's fine. We all have those lists of all the things we feel we must do or how to become the person we want to be, but recognize that sometimes we need to just get through a day or a week or a month and then you'll have the strength to kick depression's ass. It almost always comes back, but you'll be stronger next time. It may happen several times. Maybe just a few hours or a day or a week or months. We all have different timelines for our journeys, full of ups and downs - and your ups are coming. They're out there. You're a stunning young lady with so much ahead of you and much to offer to yourself and others. Depression will try to drown out your reasoning, your self worth, your sense of self, your critical thinking. You'll start to regain those parts of yourself, even if it's piece by piece and it might take time, but when you do they'll be stronger and more resilient than ever.
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u/mungalla 3d ago
Some people are far more sensitive to the madness around us. It is a super power - but by no means easy!
Maybe demand less of the people around you?
Powerful feelings of mistrust can and do lead to us having distorted view of ourselves. So come back to what you KNOW and do not speculate on anything else.
If you are (mostly) kind, keep doing that. If not, focus on being kind despite the failings of everybody else. And remember to congratulate yourself in your kindness every evening before bed!
I admire the courage you showed by asking for support here.
Enjoy the miracles in every day - like the sun when you can.
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u/Blainefeinspains 3d ago
A caterpillar draws itself into a cocoon because it knows, instinctively, that it’s time to change. It doesn’t do this because something is wrong. It does it because something is unfolding.
It needs a space that’s safe, still, and free of judgment. A space to break down the old self, build something new and get ready to meet the world again.
It’s not easy. It’s not comfortable. No one else can truly understand it. But that doesn’t make it any less real. Or any less necessary.
Often when we feel low or stuck, it’s because our expectations, of ourselves, of others, of life, don’t match what’s actually happening.
We say, “This isn’t right,” or “This is unfair,” or we turn it inward with self criticism like, “There’s something wrong with me.”
But what if nothing is wrong?
What if everything is unfolding exactly as it needs to? Including you. Especially you. That thought can be hard to accept. But it may also be true.
And if it is true, where does that leave us? How do we live in a world that doesn’t meet our expectations?
We start by noticing what we’re choosing and what meaning we’re giving things. And then we ask, “what happens if I stop resisting this?” What happens if I stop telling myself, “it shouldn’t be this way?”
If we can choose our circumstances, even the hard, crappy ones, and choose ourselves as we are, we create an opportunity for peace to enter to enter our lives.
That’s what the caterpillar does. It doesn’t judge the cocoon. It doesn’t question the process. It simply chooses change.
And the result is something new. Something free. Something beautiful.
Maybe that’s you.
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u/Effective_Ad_1485 3d ago
It’s definitely possible to live so out of touch with yourself that you lose your sense of reality - Been there for many years , you owe it to yourself to make a change and save yourself, it’s a life long challenge for sure
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u/Kickingbird3080 3d ago
You are a wonderful person. You deserve a joyful life. I feel you. Life could be cruel from time to time, but it will get better. The world is a beautiful place. I want to send you my hugs, and love ❤️. Take care
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u/Different_Handle5063 3d ago
You may be down Sis, but you’re still in the fight! The depression isn’t winning…you’re just about to turn the corner where the days are brighter, the things you enjoyed return to enjoyable, and you have the energy to cultivate relationships that will help stay out the pit.
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u/JazzlikeMoney1159 3d ago
I don't really have a rating for you other than from a man's view, you're beautiful. Keep your head up.
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u/Exact_Match5021 3d ago
Hi, beautiful, intelligent, worthy of love, and determined lady, stay strong things will get better.
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u/lik997 3d ago
You look like a kind soul and you are also stunning. As someone who battled major depression for years, the thing that worked for me was therapy and the right medication. Sometimes we just have to make a small step and the universe will play along. Don’t give up hope, you are not alone!
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u/Clean-Fox-2658 3d ago
This is really interesting post. I looked just like you normal but inside I’m dead and sad wanted to cry everyday.
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u/steed4x4 3d ago edited 3d ago
You look like every black celebrities side chick ever.
Oh you said Toast you!
May you live a thousand years for it would be a loss to have eyes that beautiful be lost to time. *
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u/tiddysprinkl 3d ago
I got excited thinking I read roast me. Luckily It's too early for me to let the troll out.
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u/thursaddams 2d ago
Oooo watch out, we have a badass over here… I just rolled my eyes into another dimension
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u/thursaddams 2d ago
Hey, it’s going to be okay! You’re strong and you have made it this far. Take it one day at a time!
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u/csninja1025 2d ago
You have nothing to be depressed about... I understand.. mostly.. You can't control but if you make the effort to not let those emotions control you.. and get some help and do meditation.. you'll be able to win... My sister went thru it..
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u/Late_Willingness_873 2d ago
Don’t worry..all is well .. whatever happens there is always any reason behind it so be happy 😃
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u/Top_Corgi7905 2d ago
Gotta stop surrounding yourself with people who are telling you what you need to hear. Everything Is in your head always remember that. Stop worrying about every problem at once. Knock them down is succession because once you conquer the first, youll feel confidence in fixing the rest. You got this 💪 LOCK IN
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u/LowerSimple2903 2d ago
Believe it or not…this too shall pass. Go to therapy and take meds if you need. But therapy helped me a lot. Find a good therapist it’s worth it
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u/DrewYetti 2d ago
Depression is a bad feeling when things in life are bad. But just hope for the best that things will change for the better. 👍🏿
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u/Commercial-Ad-5876 2d ago
You are a beautiful young woman. I think some forget that beauty doesn’t always mean happy though. I don’t know how long you have been on meds but as others have said it can take a long time to find the correct ones. It took me years. I have also pushed others away because it felt exhausting to try to be who they thought I should be. It helped me to find a community online with people who understand how difficult and frustrating it is to go through this. I have become very good friends with several of them. I have also seen comments here saying others have it worse than you and that is not true. Everyone has their own experience and comparing yours to someone else’s is not a fair thing to do for either of you. We see your beauty on the outside but not your pain on the inside. Sometimes I still have to take it day by day or even minute by minute to get through. Reminding myself depression lies and I just have to hold on until I see that light at the end of the tunnel. Trying to help yourself is exhausting and so easy to want to give up. You are here though and that is so important because it says you are trying. Celebrate the small things even if that means you got out of bed today. You deserve to be happy. Don’t let anyone try to tell you otherwise and don’t feel guilty for feeling like you do. What you are going through is not your fault. You didn’t choose it. I wish you all the best and I believe in you.
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u/love_peace_books 4d ago
A toast to the warrior girl, who depression cannot defeat. May your battles be forever victorious!