Maybe I should set this video's audio as an alarm. Every morning I will awaken to existential dread and shame that will follow me throughout the day and either force me to change or do an hero.
Either way the suffering is ended.
Also, yes, I'm joking, please don't spam my inbox with the suicide hotline number or essays on how I'm not alone.
What scares me the most is that I think I might have an EFD, or I might just be a procrastinator, but either way that would mean making an appointment with my family doctor to get a psych referral, then an appointment with that doctor. The thought of doing that gives me a sense of anxiety, shame and I just want to defer it to later.
Where do you live? If you have access to your insurance providers customer​service hotline, they will tell you which psychiatrists in your area are covered by them. You call their office and mention that you want an initial consultation and they will get you in. The laws are almost certainly different where you are but there are options to take care of your mental health that do not require anyone you don't feel comfortable with involved until you decide they should be.
I see. That feeling of anxiety and shame is the same I felt before initial consultations with every psychiatrist I met with last year when begining to care for my ADHD. With my current doctor, I just feel excited for each session and the changes I'm seeing.
It is not going to be easy but trust me, after sitting in that chair for about 3-5 minutes and you'll forget about the anxiety that held you back. Good luck!
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