Your last bit about no sress describes me perfectly. I used to be very diligent and would be stressed about deadlines and consequences, but when i hit college something clicked (in a bad way) and i stopped getting stressed as i simultaneously started slipping in school. I feel like i do mental gymnastics to rationalize why certain consequences arent as bad as they seem, and then that behavior just repeats itself until im not getting anything done. I think that stress is paramount to my success, but i rationalize negative consequences instinctively at this point. Ive always guessed it developed as a defense mechanism for my brain to cope with all the stress i was under, and then i just started succumbing to reactive rationalization and the instant gratification of not doing something undesirable. It sucks and im not sure how to train myself not to be this way.
I almost feel like I have it worse... I am acutely aware of just how bad of a situation I'm in. My brain doesn't do anything to rationalize it. But yet here I am.
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