Oh I completely understand, but seriously though I find myself saying stuff like, "alright we're going to fucking get this done.....no messing around. Focus focus focus." Then I go to get back on the task, get distracted, and realize I've spend 45 fucking minutes not doing what I was actually supposed to be doing.
My short term memory is garbage too. People will tell me something and I make a point to try and remember it, then when they ask about it, I'm like, "GOD DAMMIT I forgot again"
Do you know how many times I've left my lunch in the fridge or on the floor by my shoes on my way to work? Seriously this doesn't feel normal.
edit: I also wanted to mention the book thing again. Most people could sit down and read a novel in a weekend if they had to, even if they weren't into the book/genre/whatever. For me......that sounds like a nightmare and I honestly don't think I would be able to do it.
Just came here to say I feel very similarly. I haven't read since I was a child for this reason (I'm talking novels, etc).
I even found a book a few years ago that I was super interested in, and managed to make it most of the way through the book over months... But it becomes really frustrating and feels like a chore to read when, as you described, you suddenly realize you're 10 pages deep with no recollection of what you've just read. Your eyes keep moving and your hands even keep turning the pages. Then you realize you've been day dreaming of spaghetti or started pondering about an irrelevant piece of info given in the book. Then you gotta start over. But your kind is already so distracted, what's the point in reading now anyways?
It is something that has always bothered me and honestly made me feel inferior. I think of myself as quite intelligent, but when I can't perform in a school like setting it takes quite a toll on my confidence. Trying to sit and read really reminds me of that in a hurry :(
THIS ..... so much this. I like to think I'm a pretty smart guy, and when my friends start talking about what books they've been reading, etc......and then the subject gets to me, I feel embarrassed to say that I don't read. I don't read because it's just too frustrating for me. I would love to get lost in a novel or some finance books but it's just not possible.
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