This sounds like me to a T. If there is something I TRULY want to work on, I will be laser focused, but otherwise my brain is all over the place. No wonder I always have 8 instances of chrome open at a time with 40 tabs each. When I go back through them I just think to myself, how the fuck did I get from landscaping to the best southern bbq rib rub.
Maybe I should go see a doctor and get something for this. I always just feel like I'll be dismissed rather than have the doctor actually consider I may actually have ADHD.
I couldn't focus worth a shit in university unless it was a subject I cared about. I leave work until the last minute even though I know better than that by now (I'm 35 now). And I can't sit down and read a book because 10 pages in I realize I haven't been paying attention to the book because my mind is elsewhere but my eyes just kept on going.
Oh I completely understand, but seriously though I find myself saying stuff like, "alright we're going to fucking get this done.....no messing around. Focus focus focus." Then I go to get back on the task, get distracted, and realize I've spend 45 fucking minutes not doing what I was actually supposed to be doing.
My short term memory is garbage too. People will tell me something and I make a point to try and remember it, then when they ask about it, I'm like, "GOD DAMMIT I forgot again"
Do you know how many times I've left my lunch in the fridge or on the floor by my shoes on my way to work? Seriously this doesn't feel normal.
edit: I also wanted to mention the book thing again. Most people could sit down and read a novel in a weekend if they had to, even if they weren't into the book/genre/whatever. For me......that sounds like a nightmare and I honestly don't think I would be able to do it.
My ADD has never bothered me that much. It's sort of just always been there, but I hate my short term memory. I feel awful when I get ready of work in the morning and completely forget about the mess I leave behind. I apologize to my roommates frequently.
You should see my work bench in the garage. Tools and parts everywhere. I LOVE working in a clean and organized environment, but no matter how hard I try, my workspace always seems to be a mess.
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u/confusing_times_ta May 30 '17 edited May 30 '17
This sounds like me to a T. If there is something I TRULY want to work on, I will be laser focused, but otherwise my brain is all over the place. No wonder I always have 8 instances of chrome open at a time with 40 tabs each. When I go back through them I just think to myself, how the fuck did I get from landscaping to the best southern bbq rib rub.
Maybe I should go see a doctor and get something for this. I always just feel like I'll be dismissed rather than have the doctor actually consider I may actually have ADHD.
I couldn't focus worth a shit in university unless it was a subject I cared about. I leave work until the last minute even though I know better than that by now (I'm 35 now). And I can't sit down and read a book because 10 pages in I realize I haven't been paying attention to the book because my mind is elsewhere but my eyes just kept on going.