We should start a club, where we fix all our problems and cope with stuff, and motivate each other... I have it all planned out it's gonna be great, I've even made most of a mind map detailing exactly how it should look.. I'm on Reddit right now, but after that's done I'll get to it later..
(This is a joke meant to be funny, but so painfully true and the same cycle I've been on for years.. it's almost a cosmic joke that I've/we've got the abilities and wherewithal but somehow don't follow through.. worst part is in those panicked moments we HAVE created objectively awesome stuff and that's how we've gotten by and KNOW we can do it. But it takes a crisis or deadline to sit down and finish.)
I completely understand that feeling he mentions of "I know I should do this, I know it's gonna suck if I don't do this now. But then still don't do it. I always figured that once I identified the 'inaction' it would be easy to correct, but it's weirdly not enough.
I imagine it's kind of akin to hard drug users who watch themselves making the bad choice, know it's bad but do it anyways.. except when I watch myself do it my payoff isn't even an awesome drug trip, it's just a bit of time on reddit, or YouTube, or tv, or "fapping".. don't get me wrong I love those things, but it's totally not worth the hassle later and I Know that, and yet I do it. (Even this very second I'm supposed to be working on my resume and LinkedIn, huge consequences, but here I am spending a few extra min to write this out... and for what? Lol... not lol..
And I found out that for me it is literal addiction.
Every time I postpone, play a game, Reddit , etc I get just a tiny bit of happy hormone.
And that tiny bit now is so potent the now eclipses the future big dose.
Because to my conditioned brain that does not exist yet.
And the thing is the conditioning is in everything:
Commercials - check
games - check
Fat loss super duper diet - check
Reddit micro information bite - check
makeup - check
slim fast straight jacket - check
anything and everything else that promises results now for no effort.
And knowing it does not help break it because I am hooked on the most potent drug my own body can make.
But i am breaking it. One step at a time. One failure at a time I succeed.
I study for 30 min and take a 5 min break that becomes 40. But i did 30 min which is 28 more then 3 months ago and 2 more then yesterday and 5 less then tomorrow.
Just remember you break it with routine. And routine is built one tiny step at a time. No matter how often you fall as long as you get up and try again in a slightly different manner you will get there.
1.1k
u/aletoledo May 30 '17
It's almost like people like this are attracted to reddit for some reason...