So I have this friend who is nice sometimes and borderline abusive other times or abusive. But before I talk about that I want to set the stage and talk ahout who I am. I am an online activist mainly focused on mental health activism. I do stuff like share suicide prevention resources and other resources which I have even included on a website I made.i am also vocally anti bullying and anti predator and I raise awareness of predators police wont do anything about or report known predators As an activist I am in several group chats where people share stuff related to activism but one is more of a hangout chat where people talk about life and stuff rather than just talking about activism. One day I was talking about my self harm addiction because people were dicussing addictions and I felt comfortable talking about my struggles My friend is in that chat and noticed this. Months later (recently) my friend makes a comment in chat and I say ok to it. (She had wanted people to make her laugh) and I just said ok to her comment thinking nothing of it and soon I got busy with something else and forgot about the comment

Later however she brings up the fact that I only said ok to her comment and goes as far as to call me a fake self abuser (she means self harmer) and even creates a video exposing me because she thinks I don't pay enough attention to what she says. Thing is I can get busy sometimes and forget about what she says in the chat or I genuinely don't notice it some of these activists chats have a lot of people in them.

Recently I have had people over (they visited for a week) and I am working with someone in contact with authorities and we are trying to take down a bad cyberbully who has told minors to kill themselves etc and sent police after innocent people (that is a story for another day) the point is I Have a life outside of the chat she is in with me and I can't always respond or if I am busy sometimes my responses will be short. But the fact she is attacking me over something I havent mentioned in the chat for months is pissing me off and the fact she called me a faker and made an actual song about me (she makes music) is upsetting. I have never intentionally did anything bad to her. I just sometimes ignore her if I am busy with life or I genuinely don't see her comments because there are a lot of activists in these chats. I want to block her after this but I am afraid she might make more videos. Thoughts?

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Note this is a long story.

Tw rape mention so before I talk about what happened recently I want to l give a little backstory on who I am. I am a activist my main areas of activism including suicide prevention/mental illness awareness and victim advocacy. i have a twitter page and run a website that has links to different orgs like professional suicide hotlines, domestic violence hotlines and more. I am just someone who likes to help others and do research on these organizations myself.

Now on my twitter page I often tweet resources for the mentally ill, poems I have written about issues like mental illness and more. But i am very into metoo type activism too like sometimes I may raise awareness about a predator police won't do anything about. Or even go as far as to talk about my own experiences as an abuse victim(including being a csa survivor) . But my main stuff is writing and resources.

Now there is this guy lets call him dave(not real name) who I don't know well. a month or so ago dave dms me to ask If i had any resources for a project he was working on and I give him some and he  thanks me but other than I really havent talked to dave much except for maybe a few tweets here or there. We are not close.

Now last night Dave adds me to a twitter chat with other people in it with no explaination at first. I check out the chat and immediately notice someone was talking about suicide. Figuring dave invited me into the chat so I could send the dude resources or perhaps talk to them a little I stayed in the chat and I was going to start talking to the guy when I noticed something off about the chat. There were other people in the chat who did not genuinely seem concerned about a possible suicidal person. For example one person sent a picture of a badly drawn dick and another person was posting about boners and and a third person was talking about thai women.

Getting the feeling something was off I decided to not really talk in the chat but instead keep an eye on it. Thats when things got weird. One thing I noticed was people kept trying to get me to talk to the suicidal person but it wasn't in a genuinely concerned way. They would post about them then post some stupid shit or something weird. Then it gets worse the "suicidal" guy (lets call him mark) starts talkingabout rape and says "it's a mans job to rape unconcious bodies?)" With a question mark after that statement. And before that other people were talking about rape as well. Me being a female CSA survivor(but not rape victim) was secretly like what the hell. Getting uncomfortable with the dicussion I decided to leave but not before screen recording the rape comments and some other stuff

So at 10:07 (this was before I left the chat btw and when I had already been in chat for over twenty minutes, dave messages me privately he claims he was running an op to get like minded people together like trump suppporters, racists and nick fuetes supporters etc together in a chat to see what they would do or say because these people need to be exposed.  Now I don't know if Dave is telling the truth on this or not or if Dave is just a creep(btw I have been talking to another woman about him and she claims she heard dave is a perv once) but here my issue Dave added me into the chat without my consent, doesnt tell me what he is doing until I had already been in the chat for more than twenty minutes and by that time people had already started sending weird sexual things but no rape comments yet.

honestly looking back I should of left immediately whem things got sexual but I was trying to figure out why I was added to such a chat and concerned about a possibly suicidal person (who I know believe was never really suicidal) based on other comments they and other people made. I didnt message dave to ask at the time because I was concerned he could be a creep or something.

Now here is the thing do I now confront Dave and ask him why the fuck he thought it was a good idea to add me (who recently spoke about their sexual assault the day before on twitter btw) to such a chat because what the hell. Or should I just block him and not say anything. Like you shouldnt do that to women you barely know. And the fact that I have exposed a couple creeps in the past (like a couple months ago I tweeted about a guy making concerning rapey type comments about random women online and contacted his school(dude had the school he went to in his bio) doesnt give Dave the right to add me to such a chat. I suspect the few times I have done stuff like that because I was concerned about the safety of others might be why Dave added me to the chat.

Sorry this is so long if you take the time.to read this thanks. And i am still.mad about the whole thing.

To make a long story short my friends creepy ex is stalking me online. They have several social media accounts and I had to block them. They know where I live too and have been trying to get me to die by suicide. I dont want to go to police here as I live with a sick relative who doesnt know we were doxed and they dont need the stress. And the police near where the stalker lives refuse to do anything. I don't know what to do. I originally wrote about this on r/cyberbullying but domeone suggested I try here too here is my original post. Also look at my comments in case I forgot something https://www.reddit.com/r/bullying/comments/1hs8kbl/poem_i_wrote_about_bullying_and_suicidal_ideation/

It's about how the people I reported the bully too don't give a shit either

All I want is for people to care I don't want to become another statistic on a page. I don't want to be another face on the news. I don't want to be trapped for all eternity in a coffin in the ground buried six feet down. I don't want to lose but I am losing my will to try so I dont die. I don't want to go but I don't want to stay either.

What do you think?

Ok ny story started a couple years ago. My trans friend was dating a "girl" named lily (name has been changed) who also said she was trans (but I don't believe she is because after my friend broke up with her ex released her nudes to an anti trans group and tried to paint my friend as a predator but that's another story)so basically because of the harassment she was getting from her ex and the anti trans group my friend left twitter.

Now here is where I come in. I ignored the fight between my friend and her ex mostly (other than reporting the revenge porn of my friend to the site it was on but did little else) But then I saw the same "lady" had been harassing transgender minors and causing them to attempt suicide or cut. That's when I lost it.

Since I didnt know where the person lived I couldnt report them to police and I couldnt ask my friend if she knew because my friend left twitter. So I blocked all of the bullies accounts on social media that I knew of and did a beware post on them with proof of some of what they did.

Thats when my trouble started. The bully still found out I wrote about them. And for revenge decided to create a very convincing fake video of me "erping" with a minor. And despite the fact I have publicly stated I was in another chat at the time people including ones from trans community believed her. To make matters worse this person even made a youtube video about me (it got taken down though and put me on a dixing site)

Now I don't know exactly where this person lives but I have a general idea of the area(found out by digging through posts she made) and I contacted police in that area. Describing how she bullied minors,sent them nudes and other stuff. Nothing was done. And the issue is it possible she is using a fake name or something.

Anyway this person has been hellbent on trying to destroy my life. I have lost friends over this people who believe her bullshit. Also would like to mention this person stalked me irl. Like I went to visit someone for the holidays once (thanksgiving) and she somehow knew what state I was in despite the fact I did not post anything about it on social media (I normally only post stuff when I get home to be safe) and it was not just the state she narrowed it down to the town too.

I dont know what to do anymoere because now my address is out there and people think I am a predator. My friend said there is something you can get so she wont bother me online(like an online restraining order type thing although that is not the name for it) issue is when I called two different courthouses in my state about it they said I actually have to go into court and I couldnt just fill out the form online like it seemed to suggest on the internet. I don't want to take this person to court I just want this to be over with and have my personal info gone online. Like this could affect future careers possible.

I had to private my main twitter because of her and she still somehow could see it. Also I tried blocking but she has a ton of accounts.

Its really frusterating how someone who caused a minor to attempt and encouraged cutting (as well as doing illegal things like hacking into people's accounts) can get away with it. Yet people like me (a non minor) are forced to suffer and I have even attempted a few times too. All the shit she has put me through and people not believing me has made me very angry too and I am getting to the point of doing stuff I wouldnt normally do out of anger (like I threw a box recently)

Where is the justice? For me it seems like there will be none. Thoughts

My abuser gave a transphobe and kiwi f***** my contact info. I really want to die please do not ignore me like last time. I already want to kill myself and I cant go to a suicide hotline they will call police . I know they have a kill count on that site. I will kill myself unless people can convince me not too. The person already making my life a living hell with false allegations