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I remained passive for 3 out of the 5 years of highschool that there are and now at the fourth I'm trying to catch up by socializing with almost everyone. my main friends in the class already kind of joined the one bigger group full of extroverted cool guys who are impossible to become friends with. It's like they live in a higher plain of existence that Im just not allowed to enter. I do talk to them every once in a while and there are some moments when we have actual conversations and it looks like I'm socializing with them, but in the end nobody ever contacts me apart from when they need school stuff. Then they occasionally give some pretty cold replies every now and then that I interpret as (I'm responding to your joke to not be mean) and I start fearing that they don't really find me that fun to be around or that they find me pretty weird or stupid. Recently one of them while joking revealed that in that group they all thought I had some motor disfuncions because of how bad I was at sports. They seem like nice people but I always end up assuming the worst and I try to be extra careful around them. I'm talking no conversations unless it's really necessary or there's a valid reason to talk so they don't realize that im trying hard to become their friends. This usually causes me to not talk to them for even 2 days because I would feel embarrassed. when I talk to them or even happen to be in the same place as them i start feeling out of place and as if I'm pissing them off by just being there because they don't want me.

with this method I did achieve some little things like the fact that now we actually have conversations compared to the 0 conversation I had with them during all previous years, and now they say goodbye to me.

I'm wondering if my worries make sense or if I'm overthinking it and people don't really care that much

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