I apologize in advance, I'm just venting.
I'm really frustrated with my experience with this course. My subscription ends at the end of this month and I'm jamming my two exam attempts into the remainder of my time. I'm likely going to fail and I realize I have no one else to blame but myself. The advice from OffSec is to complete over 80 CTFs to prepare for the exam but all through the process of completing these CTFs, I never felt like my knowledge was compounding in any meaningful way. I continued thinking it will eventually click but it never did. Each CTF had a unique vulnerability and I couldn't figure out how I would logically discover it when reading the write-up.
More recently, I've realized my learning and note taking methods were ineffectual so I've revised them but each time I do an OffSec CTF I still don't feel like I'm adding to a knowledge base. More, I'm picking up factoids that may apply in future hacking but I may never see the same vulnerability again.
Throughout this process, I would continue to have these feelings so I would venture out to learn tertiary subjects like devops, system admin, and python development. I was desperate to find information or skills that would link the hacking together. I learned a lot about a lot of different things, and I'm very grateful for that, but I'm still unable to complete most CTFs without assistance.
I have learned through my exploration that I much prefer development. It's satisfying to do and the roadmap to improve is much more clear. I will say, though, that this experience has been positive but frustration. Positive because I'm very happy with everything I've learned over this year but frustration that I won't be able to convert it into something tangible like a certificate. Also, this has revealed some glaring holes in my learning process that I needed to fill and I'm happy it gave me opportunity to address those.
Now that I'm writing this all out, I see now that I'm probably just burnt out. I'm interested in getting my OSCP, mostly to validate the time and effort I've put in, but I don't think I'll pursue security. I like learning so I may continue with CTFs but without the pressure of a looming exam, just for fun.
Thanks for listening to my Ted Talk or whatever.