I’m currently grieving an intense loss and feel like it’s consuming me. Please send whatever healing energy you can my way.

I could also use a distraction so if you can comment a positive story or idle chit chat I would greatly appreciate it. Anything to help keep my thoughts from getting the best of me 🙏🏼💔

TLDR: I’m mourning the loss of my marriage and the future I thought I would have.

My husband and I have been going through a rough patch for a while. We spent a good amount of time talking about separating and what it would look like for us. Originally we planned on living separately but continuing to be in a relationship to see if space apart worked for us- we both work remote so there wasn’t really a chance to miss each other. We figured one of two things would happen that way: either we would realize the marriage was still what we want or we would realize it wasn’t and we’d at least have the chance to adjust to not living together in the process.

On Sunday he decided to move out and that he no longer wants to try to continue to have a relationship. This change has devastated me. He mentioned that he doesn’t think we are compatible and that he doesn’t see a future with me. I don’t feel the same way. I feel like our differences were a positive and helped us to grow and experience things we might not have otherwise experienced. He is my person and I could see us growing old together.

I’m 3 days into him not being in our house and it’s crushing me. We were married for 4.5 years so suddenly not having him in the home has been really hard. I feel consumed by this grief and can’t seem to find peace during the day. I feel it from the moment my eyes open and even in the short periods of sleep I get. I dream of him and the grief I’m experiencing. I start therapy tomorrow and hoping it will help me to process these intense emotions. I know love is not enough and if he’s not interested in a relationship with me that I need to let him go. My logical brain and emotional brain are not on the same page though.

If anyone has any words of wisdom for me I would be really grateful.

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I’ve had my back door open all day enjoying the warm weather and this hummer decided to come check out the inside of my house. We both panicked for a few minutes thinking she was stuck inside but she eventually made her way back out the door. Glad she was able to get out safely!

Minus a few filler diamonds and joining the pieces together. Time to catch up on March

• flower centers = daily low

• flower petals = daily high

• blue borders = rainy day

• beige circles = full moon

• black circles = new moon

• grey pentagons = dividers between months

Nala doesnt wiggle her butt/tail very often but when she does it’s because she can’t handle the anticipation of the toy being thrown. It’s so stinking cute so I must share