It's always been tough for me [M19] to connect with people. Last year, I was lucky to socialize even once every couple of weeks, sometimes going a whole month without any interaction. I actively tried to make friends and even had a brief romantic encounter with a man (I considered myself asexual) just for the social aspect. Thankfully, I've since found genuine friends and realized I'm attracted to women.

I recently met a woman I really like – she's genuinely kind, which is rare in my experience. She mentioned having 8 sexual partners, a number that honestly blew my mind. For two years she had sex more often than I talked to people! I have no judgment towards her, but it highlights a life experience so different from mine. I think I've had fewer close friends in my entire life.

I've been actively working on my social life for a few years now, doing everything I could just to be around people. While things are better now, I can't help but feel jealousity towards those who have casual sex, and even more so towards those in meaningful relationships.