To sum it up briefly: I pissed myself in public. Twice. In the span of a few hours. As a 19-year-old solo traveler.
It all started late in the afternoon, when I decided to take a walk up a hill in Athens to catch the sunset. I brought a couple of beers and some smokes with me, thinking it would be a nice way to watch the city light up as night took over. The view was breathtaking, and for the hour I spent up there, I was able to unwind and just take it all in. I finished the beers and smoked my last cigarette, watching the world turn golden as the sun dipped lower.
But then reality hit. I suddenly realized I needed to use the bathroom. No big deal, right? I figured I’d find one at the top of the hill, so I stood up to start looking around. At that moment, I began to feel a little off — dizzy, confused, maybe just the effects of the beer catching up with me. But I shrugged it off. The need to pee kept growing stronger as I climbed higher, my bladder beginning to contract, a pressure building that I couldn’t ignore.
When I reached the lookout point, I found it packed with people — couples, groups, all there to watch the same sunset. I was at my breaking point, and I thought I saw some stairs that might lead to a bathroom. Relief seemed within reach.
They didn’t.
Instead, those stairs led to nowhere but more steps, and right there, in the middle of all the people, my body gave out. My bladder just couldn’t hold it anymore, and I pissed myself. Not just a little, but fully. I stood there in shock, completely dazed, humiliated. I couldn’t even think straight, but somehow I managed to stumble back through the crowd, my face burning with shame, and find a dark corner to collect myself.
I had three options. None of them were good.
The first and most embarrassing: Walk down to the metro, packed with people, and try to make my way back to my hostel like nothing had happened.
The second: Try to hail a taxi, which seemed impossible given the chaotic surroundings and the fact that my phone had no reception.
The third: Walk an hour and a half back to my hostel, soggy and freezing.
I chose the taxi option. I walked down the hill to the nearest street and tried to book one, but of course, nothing worked. The phone reception was spotty, and the stares from strangers didn’t help my growing anxiety.
So, I went with the metro. I had no choice. My pants were soaked, and I had to walk through groups of people, each one taking notice of my soaked state. My bladder was still screaming at me, the constant pressure never letting up.
When I finally made it to the metro station, there was a protest going on. Of course, that added to the chaos. By now, my stomach started hurting again, just like it had earlier in the day, a constant ache that made me feel nauseous. As I descended into the platform, the urgency to pee returned, more intense this time.
I paced around the platform in a daze, my legs freezing in my wet clothes, trying to ignore the fact that I was about to lose control again. I couldn’t. There was no way I was going to embarrass myself further in front of a packed train. So, I just kept walking in laps to calm the urge, ignoring the snickers and stares from people on the platform.
When the metro arrived, I squeezed between people, hearing the laughter and seeing the pointing fingers. Groups of people, mostly my chicks my age, whispering as I stood there, embarrassed beyond belief. Every stop felt like an eternity.
When I finally got off, I was so close to my hostel, but of course, I took a wrong turn. The pressure in my bladder was overwhelming now, and before I could find a place to relieve myself, I couldn’t hold it any longer. I stood there for a moment, utterly defeated, as I felt it happen again.
I didn’t even know what to think. I was numb. I somehow made it to the hostel and ran straight to the shower, my body aching, my mind spinning. I felt like I might throw up. I just sat there in the shower, letting the hot water wash over me, but none of it could wash away the humiliation.
Now, I’m lying in my bunk in a 12-bed dorm, my hair still wet from the shower, my pants still wet folded up in the bathroom. Anyway it is what it is but wasn’t fun and still not over.